Bismillah. Its 5am.
*tetba rsa nk nyanyi lgu Gwen Stefani- 4 in the morning. Aha! HAHA
Haishh. Okeh. what makes me up till this time?
Bca novel. Sarah Webb- The Loving Kind.
slaluye chat dgn amir smpai ke pg ni.. tp rini xchat pn. Its time to grow up! Dia kna la extra care+concern dgn stdy dia. After all.. Kte bdk medic? kuang3... Ak je la still cmni. Cuti......
Well, dlm entry sblum ni.. ye ye oohh je kn kte mcm2..? Trus bertahan la, pgalaman sgala bagai la ak sebut. *knonye nk motivate diri sndiri. But then, there is always excuses for a LOSER like me. Huu.. Ak pn xsgka ak cmtu. Tp, tu la AKU. Ni sume psl keje la.. Haishh.. xsudah2 lg kn?? Td, ntah la. terlebih tdo?plus cm 'ter-tinggikn' sore kt ibu time nk g keje. agk mgecewakan. i promised myself to be a good daughter.. :( so. ble kt keje.. dgn kekrgn 'chef' a.k.a org yg ley uat keje+++++ order mcm2 kna rijek. down la kot.. pastu customer rmai xmyabar plak.. time mgrib sibuk sgt nk mkn luar??Kuar la umah kul 8!! bg chance ak smbhyg dlu. ni x, cehhh *okayy. nonsense.
Tp, slpas ap yg terjd-bengang customer rmai n xdpt nk g solat.. So, jd bangang la kn? nk mgamuk tu cpat sikit la kn.. Customer plak uat prgai ke-tahi-an. Tahniahh la.. Ak pn pening2? last2. trus DECIDE. nk QUIT. nekad gle kot.. smpai dh terpk nk trus campak apron sume blah je dri situ n go to perform my mgrib. *err hipokit ke ak? Ak bkn nk berlagak baik. Cme, ad sstgh bnda yg kte xley tolerate. Korg yg bca, depends la nk pk ap. Im sori. This entry 90% emo++++
Then. trus bkerja. Smbil tu ak pk.. mcm2 kot.. Antaraye.. chill la zati, kte nk bertahan? zati, kte nk usaha? kte pgalaman..?? then ak pk lg.. keje dpt duit, xkeje xdpt duit..? tp ad je jwpnye. dats why ak ckp theres lot of excuses for a LOSER like me.. klu psl duit? bkn ak desperate sgt... mcm la mak bapak ak xde duit nk bg ak mkn.. nk bg duit pakai time blajar nnti.. klu psl pglmn..? cmla ak ni sangap sgt.. dh mcm2 keje ak uat..? even lg susah pn ad. tp organised kot. ad rules. sbb COMPANY. Mydin, kfc.. Even, xcompany. but still sume okayy je. Yg ni, ntah npe? Agkye sbb ak xsesuai kot dlm environment "pndai-pndai la nk idup".. Mgkin. Sbb ak, prefer keje. Serius. Kot la? Cmne ea nk ckp..?? Rehat tu xpe. Tp, klu ad byk pnggan mgkuk xbsuh lg.. uat la dlu kn? pastu kelam kabut. spe yg tension..? Cehh.
Then.. stlah pk2 blek.. ak pn tggu masa yg sesuai. dlm kul 10 lbey r time tu.. cm customer dlm 10 org.. tp sume tgh mkn. n i met my bos. i said to him. "Bos, im sori. But i think im going to quit. Well,its okay rite? there r so many spm leavers n u cn pick them anytime u want. So, i'll be working until u find my replacement." he asked, why? dh abes cuti ke..? but then i replied. "its not dat i want to act bdk baik or what.but im not a smoker. im not smoking when i stress or what, i just need 10mins to pray. the prob is.. the customers are coming one after one. its okay boss. everythng is just fine. its me myself. sy cri duit pn nk pakai uat bljr.xpe la bos.." Bos ak diam.. n dia kte awk tggu la dlu ea.. Isnin ni ke.. Ak okayy. blah.. n trus duk. rsa nk nges. Kah3.. Sbb sebak kot? *bongok x ak? yela.. sebak kot. sbb bos ak tu OK org ye. cm keje xde nk stres? *ye ke? HAHA. tp seriusli. he is a good boss. :)
So. itu la dia. straight after tu ak rsa tenang. n trus sms amir. "im quitting".. dlm kul 11cm tu.. customer sume blah.. ak kemas2 sume tu.. then duduk.. *tu la untgye keje ni. "pndai2 nk idup" hehe. Then, Wan di pggil ak duk kt 'table talk' ktorg.. *table talk-tmpt ktorg sme2 lepak klu xde cstomer.. Dia taye.. btol ke nk bhnti.. Dia kte xpyah la.. N ad la lg bnda2 dia ckp.. *bgus ye dia ni.. dia suka uat ak pk lbey skit. HAHA. ok then.. ak pn bncg2 smpai nk ter-nges kot. bengong x? xde la.. sbb ak sndiri yg taching dgn kte2 ak.. Reali. Ini sume pglmn.. Tp, akan ad satu tahap, korg rasa cm ni bkn khdpn yg korg akan jalani 5,10 tahun akn dtg. So, korg xperlu bersusah nk adapt.. sbb reali. ibarat cm kte org timur. nk adapt idup cm west people uat ap kn? Ha. yes. perumpamaan yg tepat!! Tu la.. So ak okayy la..
CLOSING TIME>> ak pn dgr rela hati MEMBANTU. oh yeay.. bsuh pggan tu.. ala.. kacang je kot? hehe. wpun bkn keje ak. tp ak pk.. xpe la. Allah itu Maha Adil. ak tlg org hri ni.. ne tau sok lusa org tlg ak kn? Peh.. ble ak pk cm tu.. msti ak nk taching.. Pelik x? Ha, nk gtau. ad sorg bdk bru keje situ. akceli, xbru la. dia dh keje situ sjak 5 thun lalu.. time cuti sek? gmpak kot! keje time cuti la.. hes only 17. ktorg pggil dia Boy. n adik ak, yg sek sme dgn dia kenal.. coz bdk ni.. dj, Mc n mcm2 la kot..? So, we have few cnversations n hes okay. Alah, sume yg lain2 pn okay. :) Yg pling best, dia nk tlg cover ak sok jap? Yes! *tetba rsa.. ala.. ko ni, dtg lmbt la. org dh ckp nk resign bru nk offer tlg gnti. HAHA.
After all. tgokla. Sbb ak dh rsa cm rugi minta berhenti. tp xkn nk kte xjd. cm ap la plak kn? so. Klu bos ak jmpa org, n suh ak bhnti.. ak pn blah la.. if not, insya-allah. at this time. stlah ak usaha... *yela.. pening kot.. pk mcm2... cehh. So. skang ni.. ble depends kt BOS ak, tu agk brbeza.
Pnjg gle entry ak kn? HAHA. Tahniah kpd spe2 yg mmbca smpai sini. Amir? Larat x nk bca...? Nk uat cmne. Mmg ini la ak.. Once dh menulis, amik ko! hehe.
p/s: AKAN berusaha bgun lbey AWAL utk plg buku library.. dh nk sbln dh kot.hehe. Gara2 MUET. walhal, xpakai pn.. teruk kn? nk suh adik ak, si Alif tu yg plgkn. Bru ak blnja dia Isnin ni. Hehe..
Haish, zati. mcm2 la ko ni.................
last2, tsedar.. td khamis mlm jumaat. dhla xbca yassin.. sgt lme xdgr 'talk'.. berdosa xmgrib lg.. xpsal2 kna qada. Ha, bos blnja mkn ramai2 td!! *sbb ak nk bhenti la kot..? hehe.. n, finali, im reciting Al-Quran after few weeks (ABC++) :(( sume ye brbeza.. xcm kt uia dh.. rndu kt nisa.. husna.. ngn syaza.. they r my torchbeares.. HAHA. n xlpe kt Adira. Syg KALIAN~~