couples #2

Bismillah.

Jom sambung yg xberapa nk smbung. well. Ni boleh kata cm refresh2 gak la. Bfore ni slalu nk buat entry cmni. Tp hanya tggal kngn sja la. Dan skang, layankn aja. Coples pun couples laa. Seriously. Takd significant pape. Lebih kpd apa yg ak pk tntg relationship. Tntg couples. Tntg friendship skali? Em. Tak kot. Dan mgkin ad kena mgena dgn yg hdup, berkait dgn ak. Dan mgkin jua tidak. So, siapa yg ter-baca. Pandai2 la. Amik yg jernih, buang yg keruh. Ngehehh

Baru2 ni, dpt tau kwujudan satu blog classmate ak. Ehem ehem. Kita pggil cik yaya laa. Ak rsa cm awesome gila. Sbb dia nmpk cm lain la dgn ap yg dia tulis. Dia buat blog tntg dia dan psgnnya. Boleh kata diari cinta gtuuu. Alaaa uolssss... romantis nya haishh . :D  dan dan ak nk gak la suh mok baca. Sbb boleh kata situasi dia sme ngn mok. And pkwe dia sme cm ak la. So, mgkin mok boleh buat blog utk kisah ktorg? Dri mula2 kenal? Mungkin laaa... *blueegggghhh. Haha. 

Eh. Ak nak cter psl ap sbnrnya ni? 

Ni haa. Amik masa 5min baca ni. Syukur Allah dh permudhkn urusan ak. Toksah taip pnjg2. Sbb 100% what i want go share is exactly with her writing. So, terima kasih byk cik bukan penggoda...

godaan terakhir

Baca dulu....

Dah baca???

Sekian. Terima kasih :)

couples #1

Assalam.

PERHATIAN : sila JANGAN baca.

Couples#1 . Wah. Dh rupa mcm aku nk cerita psl pakwess ak plak. Ikut nombor. Haha. Mmg takla kn. Se-gila and se- se ak ni la. My first pakwe is si gemuk tu a.k.a mokmok.and ad ke yg no 2? Oh. Xde lg. Alhamdulillah. Ckup la mok sorg. 

Disebabkn lama xberblogging. Ak pun tgok la beberapa entry terakhir dan Aiskrim cair buat ak terkejut sbnrye. Hehe. Ak lupa ak pernah update kt sini. Dan ak rsa cm haishhhh. Ak xupdate pun yg ktorg dh berbaik semula. Hm.dlm 2-3mggu la breakup. Paling lama. Dan lelaki kn.. mana la nk sme dgn perempuan. Apa yg kita pk.. yg kita rasa.. mmg usually upside down dgn lelaki ni.

"Ye ke dh breakup? Main2 la tu. Nnti smbg balik puye... " 

Ayat teman2 rapat ak. Boleh plak diorg ni igt putus ni main2. Its really a heart-breaking tauu. Even after smbung balik, the feling will never be the same. And forever pun. Bkn ak je. Msti dia pun rsa cmtu kot. Sbb xley deny. Ad isu2..

Ak ni boleh kata pelupa gak la kot. Ak xigt la any details for most of the events. Ak lg prefer igt output dia. Ctoh. Time ktorg argue bln 1 tu, sbnrye boleh nk brainstorm pk ap puncanya.Tp malas. Dan ak lg senang utk igt sbb perasaan time tu. Ak SAKIT. so end up, smpai skang ak rsa 'sakit' bila pk psl bnda tu. 

Dan one thing about couples ni. Serius memeningkn kepala. Haha.

Unless kau jenis care less. Ataupun kau mmg smpoi. Bg ak yg sgt emotional dan sensitip *ahh. Poyo. Kata macho. * i really cant stand when man deny women's right to feel sad, wanting the attention and blabla. Come on la. Blajar science kn? Tau kn ktorg ad hormonal changes yg sgt extreme. Dan iron dri dlm bdn hilang regularly kn. Kn? Kn?

Kalau ktorg tgh sedih, tlgla comfort. Klu rsa xmmpu. Dgr je la org nk bebel. Ni dia plak nk emo2. Serabai sungguh.

Haha. Nanti la kita smbung lg. Dgn whatsapp xreply, hangin satu bdn. Tdo bguih lg. Jeishhhh. Hemok ohh gemok. 

AISKRIM CAIR

Bismillah.

Tergerak nak luah. yela. dh berderet pasal novel kan. hee. so maybe now is the time for me. about me. yeahh.

Today 30 January. officially ended the relationship.

after berapa lama ntah? kira la. dri November 2008. skang Januari 2013.

naseb baek xsempat buat anak. klu tak, takpasal pulak ak nak jaga lepas cerai berai ni.

*Haha. ini lawak kasar

Insya-Allah kali ni serius. 

ye mmg senang nk delete texts, delete gambar. and even senang je nk delete entry kt blog ni psl ktorg. senang gila. tp xsemudah tu kn nk delete semua memori kita. susah senang. 4thun lebih. bukan sekejap. tapi aku tau aku boleh.

IVE DONE IT BEFORE AND I KNOW I CAN DO THIS AGAIN.

overall.mmg aku rasa aku nak anti org duk rembia la. seriuss. hehe.

For one who reading this, 

Pray for my well-being. Moganya dpt suami ustaz2.ley bimbing ak yg rock2 ni jd lebih baik ke.. takpun. dgn sesama dentist je la. senang nk buka klinik sndiri nnti.. turun temurun kt anak cucu plak. hehe.

ya. aku boleh move on. hidup sendiri. pergi matila konon BERDUA LEBIH BAIK. 

dulu ak takut kalau putus, ak hilang arah. malu ngn kwn2. cinta cm nk rak. tp last2 putus.

tp. persetankan semua tu. mulut org.mana boleh nk tutup.

aku cuma harapkan yg kawan2 baik aku akan selalu sokong aku.

Qila.. dira.. chip.. fana.. sara.. dan yg lain2.

Tamat kisah ktorg.

SEKIAN.

overdose

Aku dah baring untuk 30minit dan bangun.

Tutup tv kt depan, ya. aku dah agak si alep akan tdo dgn tv terbuka.

Dan masuk bilik blkg, on lappy.

Aku perlu. Dah tak tahan lagi kalau setiap hari berdepan camni.

Aku susah nak tidur. 

Mungkin dah masuk 5 hari, tapi mmg susah nak tidur.

Alhamdulillah, misi 17.8 ak berjalan lancar. Boleh kata mission accomplished la. Cuma, ak mmg rajin buat kerja yg duduk. Gunting lada, potong ntah berapa byk biji bwg, masukkan kuih dlm bekas dll. Puas hati. Esok, which is hari ni. Bertambah berat laa. Nak raya la katakan.. Ye dak?

Aku nak tidur. Dah dapat terima hakikat bahawa tak semua seindah yg kita inginkan.

Hakikat bahawa pakwe yg jauh, tak dpt raya bersama, tak dpt g wedding kwn bersama. Takpe, aku telan dulu semua tu. Biasa bg org lain, tp bukan satu kenangan yg baik utk ak. Ya, ak faham. Ni lah hakikatnya.. Dah sape suh ko ber-LDR sgt kan? Lain kali, cari yg dekat2, senang.

Aku nak tidur. Tapi sakit hati mengenangkan hari ni 18 Ogos. 18 hb. Yg dulu ditunggu2 setiap bulan. Tapi skang.. masalah internet la, nak exam laa.. ataupun dah dilupakan? Sakit hati. 

Bahaya nya bila dah mula sakit hati, otak ak akan mengerah utk mengingat lebih byk yg negatif. Ya, ak rasa cm ak ad panic disorder tauu. Tak boleh lelap mata. Bila lelap jugak, paksa2, mula laaa.. Semua yg sakit hati keluar....

Hari ni, takde call/wish, ngajuk 2-3 hari lepas, kiss the rain, sampai la sakit sbb result SPM pun keluar balik. bagus kan? Dah tu, cmne ak nak tdo. ??? Terseksa woiyyyhh !

Fikir pasal semua ni. Just fikir pun sedar tak sedar boleh rembat masa smpai sejam klu dibiar cmtu je. Pastu, ak gak yg terseksa. Mungkin ak kena jumpa pakar psikologi secepat mungkin. Jangan kata ak tak ingat Tuhan. Ingat. Sebab tu hidup lagi, cuba bersabar semampu yg boleh.. Last2 rasa nak nangis......

Kdg2, ak nak teman bukan sbb nafsu semata. Ak just nak ad teman. Yg boleh ak telefon, sembang2 sblum tdo.. Kdg2 satu ucapan tu pun dh cukup.. Bukannya ak minta bedtime-story Cinderella ke Rapunzel ke.. Ak just nak teman.. At least bila, perangai 'pelik' ak muncul, dan ak tak boleh tdo.. Ak tak perlu rasa alone. Angkat fon, cakap. Lega dan tdo.. 

Ak bersyukur ad kawan yg baik. Qila.. Dira.. Tapi, ntah. Idk where to start. Gpun, taknak la diorg risau. Mungkin sbb ak dah sgt percaya dan selesa dgn yg sorg.. Ak nk sorg tu jgak.. Ntah la.. Penat emosi mcm ni. Kawen lagi bagus r !

Conan ep 61&62

Assalamualaikum

Patutye dh tdo kn skang? Tp xdpt. dh letih.. Lgpn, bru sudah sembang ngn ibu. Berjam2 gk la.. Fhm2 je la org prmpuan. Hehe :)  Td kuar jap g Jaya Jusco. Mle2 ibu ajak g pasar mlm je.. tp cm biasa la.. ap brg psr mlm.. ?? stakat roti john Awahibata + air khatira je yg sedap. hehe. Alang2 tu, ajak la ibu kuar.. saja. Mmg tau pun ibu nk ajak kuar :)  Yela, dgn anak dara dia sorg ni.. Ti nk naik cfs dh.. :(

So, spend time wisely. With my ibu, ayah, adik2, amir dan kwn2 :)

Td, xde uat ap sgt.. skejap je pegi. gerak pas mgrib. Tba sana jln2, beli2 brg sikit, dan lme gle xmasuk Popular..! Dlu stiap kali g JJ-msuk Popular, msti masuk n uat satu bnda je. eh, tak. dua bnda. tp beli satu je.

Masuk popular, usha2 novel.. dan komik conan..

Tp, msti beli komik Conan! :)

Utk Amir.

Sejak amir dh berangkat ke sana. Mmg dh gtau, xnk beli lg.. nk tggu dia balik bru beli.. klu x, xtau nk letak kt ne.. Tp, td. xtahan sgt. sbb rindu kt si buchuk tu. Beli jugak DUA td. haha.

xpela. melekat la duit gaji keje kt Bistro tu beli komik Conan utk amir. gpun, jimat btol ble amir dh xde kt malaysia ni.. haha. err? jimat ke? ok. topup mmg takla. skali kol je, hrp mklum la ongkosye. papepn, tu je la.

Rindu awak la mukk... Jaga kesihatan.

p/s : Dont forget. We are growing, yet our parents too. :(

Ya allah, panjangknla umur kedua ibu bapaku. Permudahkan la urusan mereka dan berila ak peluang utk mmbalas jasa mereka..

Amir Ridwan, awk my ONLY ONE.

penah dgr lgu Only One- Yellowcard? Iye. Itu la ak sdg nyanyi skang. haha..

sila dgr..

Oh. maaf la. Sy sygkan Amir Ridwan.

Sbb itu, sy slalu citer psl dia..

Bosan? Rsa Annoying?? Bley blah la dri sini. Sekian.

Oh. Ak nk uat mcm ne..? Mmg mcm ni la ak. Ak akan ckp, fikir, tulis, terbayang.. perkara yg ak suka. Korg pun kan..?? spe nk igt perkara yg dia xsuka..?? Adkah msa lapang yg korg ad, (BLE KORG DLM MOOD YG SGT BAIK..) korg akn pk psl kwn korg yg acciden dlm kmlgn?(ak pk gk.kdg2, ok?!) atau pk kn psakit HIV yg sdg mnunggu kmatian?? Atau pn, korg pk kn saat2 korg tjatuh dlm parit besar dpn umh sbb nervous dpn anak jiran yg bru blik dri London.?? Haha. Sudah tentu tidak.

Lg baik la, klu ak. pk psl kasut Marie Claire kt JJ lme.. dan LArrie yg sdg discount kt JJ baru.. Mana satu nk grab kali ni..? atau pk kn.. beg Sembonia, yg peh!! terbaik la weh.. atau pn jgak. pk.. saat dlm wyg, ble si dia itu khusyuk tgok Harry walhal.. ak plak khusyuk tgok muka dia.? atau time dia gelak ble tgok Mr Popper's? ak suka kt gigi dia..? Atau, ble la ak dpt gi overc..?? Ak dpt ini.. itu.. haha. bongok.

Straight to the point.

Minta maaf klu korg rasa annoying dgn diri ak.

maaf.......................

Well. pd suatu malam. ak xdpt tido.. memikirkn entry yg ak dan dia perlu break..? dan. pk2.. akhirya, ak pn kol.. settle sume ye.. Kami mcm biasa. Ak lebih matang kali ini.. Jd, biarlah kte bpisah jasad beberapa thun ni.. Shit. Dem. DEm.

AMIR RIDWAN

AND

and always want u to know..

AWAK ; New ROUTINE okeh?!

Assalamualaikum..

Hm. Sbnrye, xde mud dh ni. Ngajuk ngn AWAK!

Tp, xpe. Sperti yg di jnjikn smlm.. Ni dia entri khas utk AWAK!

1. Rsa ye, elok la dri skang, AWAk set TIMING awk. Biological clock tu bg betul sikit. Yela, ti dh nk msuk dgree. Mak xde dh nk kejut.. Xkn acik2 nk subuh kt hjung waktu btol x..? So, dri skang. Cuba bngun stiap hri kul 6.15pg ke..??

Org kta, klu amaln tu bterusan 44hari.. Insya-allah.. ley jd habit. Cuba la!

2. Mle la, mkn sarapan pagi. Sarapan pagi yg bkhasiat. Sarapan pg yg wktu pg.. Bkn dh nk msuk tgh hari.Haha. Ckp org, ak ni mmg xmkn breakfast.. Dh bgn pn kul bpe..? Ceh!  Tp, xpe. Mmndgkn dh xde pape nk uat. Ha, buat la yer..

3. Pergi la work-out bdn tu!!! Jogging pg2.. Bru sihat dan semart.. 

4. Jgn mkn mknan supper yg berat. Tau x, klu acik mkn mknan berat wktu mlm2.. Especiali after kul 12.. bkn gemuk je, tp. tu la salah satu punca SUSAH NAK BANGUN TIDO. Eish..eish..eish..

5. Pastu, boleh la merajinkn diri kemas umah.. Berlatih jd SUAMI MITHALI.haha.

SESI PAGI TAMAT.

ok, sambung... 

6. Sila la merajinkn diri, tgok course outline.. n prepare stdy la sikit2...?

7. Rajin2 membaca.. newspaper.. current issue ke... ATAU

8. Baca la novel. Ha, jd romantik sikit.!! Xpn, sila la bka TERFAKTAB : Definisi Cinta Infiniti..

Blog ksygn ak..

9. Boleh la mrajinkn diri dgn ibadat2 sunat.. Contoh : 9pg, ley uat Dhuha.. After Mgrib uat Hajat.. Pas Isya, uat Witir.

Lg2 nk bln puasa ni.. Masya-Allah.. Mmg terbaik la!! Ikhlaskn diri utk solat. dan percaya bhawa kbaikn solat itu Masyhuukk.. dunia akhirat.. Insya-Allah..

10. Jadi la diri AWAK. xkesah!

Hm. sbnrye, dlm keadaan yg ngajuk. Xde mud la nk romantik2 ni.. Huh...

Myampah je rasa. Tp, xpe. Xpe.

G la tgok BOLA. Bola tu penting sgt kn..??

Menyampah.

p/s : Zati ngajuk sbb Amir tgok bola dan reply msg sgt lmbat.

dan tiada usaha memujuk yg agresif.Hehe.

*N, klu ak xngajuk... ak akn minta si AWAK ini...

- Menemani sy siang dan mlm...

- Menghadiahkn sy, cukup dgn satu kata2 indah atau quotes.. Xpayah kuar duit pn.. 

Setakat setengah sen 1 sms pn susah ke,?

- Memberi sy SEPENUH-PENUH perhatian

- Super Saver dua hari skali.. Klu setiap hari kang xbest plak.. Tp, MODAL citer ak byk ap.? hehe.

- Weekend..... Nk SS slalu.. Miss u a lot!! Lg2 ble, kwn2 len sume kuar tau..

AWAK tuh...

-Sila tegur ble ad bnda yg AWAk tak suka, tp sy degil nk uat.. xkn xfhm lg. I want ur attention la ngoi.huh

Maaf. Sekian..

Deactivate FB. 20Julai

Salam. Iye. Tahniah zati.

Finali, ak deactivate gk fb.. Sme gk la mkna ye, ak buang FB tu dri dlm hidup ak. But not completely buang la.. kna gk ad spaya senang nk contact member2.. Thnks to Amir Ridwan.

Yela, dlu kala lg dia dh ajak ak delete fb ni.. Sbb dlu, oh ye. Ak cm ad uat 'hal' skit..

Tp.ak degil. N, skang ni. lepas dia plak uat hal. Ak tnpa ragu2 lg.. bserta sakit hati, bengang smcm.. Trus deactivate fb.

Wah. korg klu bca mesti wonder.. "lepas dia plak uat hal."...???

Ye la. Mmg si Amir, kekasih hti ak ni uat hak. Bikin hati hot gle. Mmg rsa SELAMAT TINGGAL dh la.. 

Tp. ak tau. kna sabar dlu.. Sabar2 pn, mmg dh maki hamun la kn... Protes abes! Haha.

Well. dia xuat salah besar pn. Cme. ak xsuka. Ak jeles. Ne ley dia flirt ngn org len. TAK BOLEH.

Amir Ridwan is mine! Xsuka dia komen kt pmpuan len " g tdo la.." or " jom2".. Xboleh.

Haha. Gle control kn ak?

Suka hati la.

Btw, thnks syg.. Sbb deactivate gk. Xpksa ok. u choose me, so.. cmtu la..

Haha.. Tbe2 rsa sgt teruk. SADIS btul..

Dhla. 

32 months,4 days being together!!

LOVE YOU MORE AND MORE....

DIFFERENCES?.

Please do concern. I dislike those differences.
(Hm, not reali.maybe. huh! konpius)

Huhuuuuuu...

.Amir///Zati.

ska msg / xska msg

xska kol / ska kol

optimist / pesimist

cool / passionate

cerewet kt mknan / sgt suka mknan

coklat / raspberi+vanilla

respons slow / over reactions

jealousy / confusing

patience / hot-tempered

++++

at d end. the equality is.

WE LOVE EACH OTHER.

( Ye ke amir?? )

 

Be honest

A boy and a girl were playing together. The boy had a collection

of marbles. The girl had some sweets with her. The boy told the girl that 

he will give her all his marbles in exchange for her sweets. The girl agreed.

But the boy kept the biggest and the most beautiful marble aside and 

gave the rest to the girl. The girl gave him all her sweets as she had

promised. That night, the girl slept peacefully. But the boy couldn't sleep

as he kept wondering if the girl had hidden some sweets from him the 

way he had hidden his best marble.

Moral of the story: 

If you don't give your hundred percent in a relationship, you'll always 

keep doubting if the other person has given his/her hundred percent.. 

This is applicable for any relationship. Give your hundred percent to 

everything you do and sleep peacefully. But however, LOVE is not as 

easy as ABC.The best time to put your trust is after getting married. Nevertheless, commitment ismore than enough when we are 

in a relationship.

u.

I am sorry to think that you do not get a man's most effective criticism until you provoke him. Severe truth is expressed with some bitterness.

Sometimes I wish you would pay attention to my favorite songs, because the lyrics they sing are the words I really want to say.

And that's just it, I can't imagine anyone else after you...

The last love letter (?)

I love you not because of who you are but because of who i am when i am with you.
Love is like a relaxing substance for every heart which brings a stimulating effects in our
body and soul. Thanks to you for giving me once, but here alone. Im sick.

I forget a lot of things because you take up most of the space in my memory.
I hope that oneday you'll realize that my love for you was really pure and true.
I don't want you to go back where you've started but i just wanna let you know that
you will never find someone like me anymore.

Well, It's sad that there's no more US now.
But I'm glad that for ONCE you were part of me,
n forever are mine.