communication la beruk!

Biar ak straight to the point.

Ak mmg xfhm MANUSIA. Oh, wuek. No interest anymore to psychology.Even once, when im ni lower form, i wish-to be. Now. all i understand is. HURT. CONFUSE. OMG, serius akukonpi!!

I dont know where to start.First, when im nervous. i reali want to write in english! cause it'll make me write politely(perhaps)but.i hate it!  i want to use Malay. So, at the end. xley nk ekspress sume ye dgn baik.. rojak. demn!

ok. LOVE? LOVER? penah dgr, kau la racun dan kau la madu. Shit! ak dh rasa sume tu. And now, ak xfhm. npe psgn yg bcinta. yg knon ye saling mcintai. tp, akhirye., perlu bpisah. bjanji shidup semati, (oh, ak tidak la smpai cmni)... bkongsi suka duka... memori2 ntah btaon2 lme ye... peh! ak tau ap. masalah  ye cuma satu. ak yakin, satu ni je mslh.. xkira kau muda, kau psgn tua atau even spouse pn. masalah pling utama dlm relationship is COMMUNICATION.

IYE. ak bkn master. malah, ak rasa. lg baik buka buku mana2.. xpn, ha. g jer bca kt Terfaktab tu. ad la sgala mcm isu. xpn bka blog si Aqram. Love Lessons for Men la, women la.. Lantak la sume tu. Cuma, ak reali nk luah based on ap yg ak pendam.. Sakit ak.. Luka kt hati ak.. Tekanan dri ak.. 

Kau tau x, ko satu2 ye laki yg ak bg hati ak ni.. sume phatian yg ak xpnah bg kt laki len.. kau je dpt.. Dan yg pling pnting. ak declare ko sbgai partner ak. Ak sggup bdepan dgn malu, rsa brsalah.. dan sgala mcm lg luka sbb ko. Tp, yg ni ko bg kt ak? Shit. ko kta cinta weyh..?? Blah la. Xpyah la. Ak ni mmg pakar nk mgungkit. peh. mcm2 bnda jd, tp ak uat lupa je.. yela, nk uat cmne.. Kali ni. cukupla.

CUKUP SAMPAI DI SINI.

Yes, woman needs it. n guy. u ignore it! Demn.

I'll just put in points coz.ive got new hobby. actuali, hobi lme yg dh lme dtggalkan.. lg baik dri pk, citer psl ko!

1. today, i put something in front of his house. dia tau ak ad. tp, dia cuma tgok je..? Bongok. dhla smlm evrythng xok..

2. Smlm, hari prtama ak blek umah. supposely, evrytng msti la baik2 je kn. but demn. tidak. in fact, it turns out into a shit! ley plak nk ngajuk2, nk marah2 org xangkt fon. walhal, bfore tu kta, kna kuar ngn mak. ak dh down. so, nk tgok fon lg uat pe kn..? pastu, tba2 nk dtg plak. bongok. mle2 ckp xnk. pastu nk. pastu xdpt, nk marah2. ble owg dh minta maaf n try fix blek. ngamuk2 lg. Bongok!!!!

3. Ak xde la mgharap blasan pape. tp, sms ucap trima kasih pn susah. ni mmg pling ****!!! bdget la weyh... klu bz pn xkn xde msa seminit nk hntr msg "Terima kasih" atau klu nk cpat sgt, ha. taip je la TQ. Tp, x.. puye selfish taik kambing! sumpah. bangang gle r dpt pkwe cmni. klu nk hrap kol? lg la. mimpi je la ak....

4. iye. ak sedar. ak sedang kterlaluan. tp, ko pun kna aware la weyh. ak mmg tgh peod. ko mcm xtau plak cycle ak cmne kn..? kta nk jd DOCTOR? ap ke bngap doc, xkn xtau.. attitude pmpuan ble tgh dlm keadaan cmni...?? pastu uat prgai.. peh, peh, peh....

Ad lg klu nk ungkit.. ni bru smlm.. huh. mmg bikin hati panas beb.. 

TAPI....... im pathetic. i thought dat i'll no longer hav the guts to cry, but still. i do it. ntah la.. ak xley nk pk pape. n, ak dh xde bygn dia lg dlm otak ak. yg ad cuma sakit hati.. kcewa.. ye. dia kte dia cinta ak. ak cinta dia. Tp, ni la kot ksudahanye... bpe kali dh uat istikharah.. tp ptunjuk tu x jelas.. Ya Allah..

xpe la. Go on je la. by the time. ak xnk plan pape. xnk luka kn diri ak. ak tgh sakit. n ak xnk jd lg sakit...

so.

1. enjoy hobi lme... yg satu itu...

2. ak nk hbeskn novel GLAMOUR by LOUISE BAGSHAWN

3. bca novel yg bru dibelikn oleh seseorg... xigt tjuk..

4. mnjadikn nombor 53.3 itu kpd 48.0

5. spend time ngn family

6. kumpul duit.

7. aim : kasut Marie Claire! oh... i found nice one kt JJ Ayer Keroh.. Wait for me ok?

n, beg Sembonia.. super-duper charming. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....... nak! =)