Monday, August 29, 2011

Amir Ridwan, awk my ONLY ONE.

penah dgr lgu Only One- Yellowcard? Iye. Itu la ak sdg nyanyi skang. haha..

sila dgr..

Oh. maaf la. Sy sygkan Amir Ridwan.
Sbb itu, sy slalu citer psl dia..
Bosan? Rsa Annoying?? Bley blah la dri sini. Sekian.

Oh. Ak nk uat mcm ne..? Mmg mcm ni la ak. Ak akan ckp, fikir, tulis, terbayang.. perkara yg ak suka. Korg pun kan..?? spe nk igt perkara yg dia xsuka..?? Adkah msa lapang yg korg ad, (BLE KORG DLM MOOD YG SGT BAIK..) korg akn pk psl kwn korg yg acciden dlm kmlgn?(ak pk gk.kdg2, ok?!) atau pk kn psakit HIV yg sdg mnunggu kmatian?? Atau pn, korg pk kn saat2 korg tjatuh dlm parit besar dpn umh sbb nervous dpn anak jiran yg bru blik dri London.?? Haha. Sudah tentu tidak.

Lg baik la, klu ak. pk psl kasut Marie Claire kt JJ lme.. dan LArrie yg sdg discount kt JJ baru.. Mana satu nk grab kali ni..? atau pk kn.. beg Sembonia, yg peh!! terbaik la weh.. atau pn jgak. pk.. saat dlm wyg, ble si dia itu khusyuk tgok Harry walhal.. ak plak khusyuk tgok muka dia.? atau time dia gelak ble tgok Mr Popper's? ak suka kt gigi dia..? Atau, ble la ak dpt gi overc..?? Ak dpt ini.. itu.. haha. bongok.

Straight to the point.
Minta maaf klu korg rasa annoying dgn diri ak.
maaf.......................


Well. pd suatu malam. ak xdpt tido.. memikirkn entry yg ak dan dia perlu break..? dan. pk2.. akhirya, ak pn kol.. settle sume ye.. Kami mcm biasa. Ak lebih matang kali ini.. Jd, biarlah kte bpisah jasad beberapa thun ni.. Shit. Dem. DEm.

AMIR RIDWAN




AND


and always want u to know..



PASAR MINGGU ALOR GAJAH

Well, npe tetba nk citer..? haha. harap mklum ye. of course la ak nk citer pglman ak, bkn ap itu pasar malam. lg2, pasar malam alor gajah.. sila rujuk wikipedia klu x tau..? haha.

Ak sbnrye, pling malas nk ke pasar minggu ni. Klu kt tmpt ktorg, pasar minggu stiap hari ahad. 7.30pg - 12tgh hari kot? Ntah la.. ak slalu dtg dlm kul 9. Klu terbaik sgt.. kul 8.15pg la.. tu pn jenuh mak ak offer mcm2.. nk kejutkn Queen kt umh ni bgun! Aha. Queen ok..?!!? bkn princess.. haha.

So, pg tu ak dgn berat hti yer, bgun dan temankn la.. (ikut je la.. kang nk jmpa Amir.hehe)

Gambar hiasan

So, stbanye ak di sana.. mcm besa la.. jammed bkn men.. dan dsbbkn kete kmi yg comel ni.. mak ak dgn slumber ye suh ak parking btul2 kt dpn entrance.. Ak ckp la, "eh. bkn tmpt moto je ke ibu..? Lepas ke ni..? Parking kt dpn tu la..". Namun. mak ak dgn knpiden ye.. " Alah.. letak je la. cepat2.. malas nk jln jauh2,." Ok. ak pn jln je la.. agk senang hati. mmg port pling terbaik r! haha. Mak ak mmg. Terbaik!

Tp, ap yg ak nk citer sbnrye.. i feel good. Totally sbb last night cnversation yg pling hangat. mimpi yg meletop. Wah? Bygkn la.. spnjg ak jln.. ak tsenyum.. haha. dlu, pantang org lnggar sikit. mle la ak nk membebel, bg pndgn slect sikit..( kdg2 je ).. tp pg tu. reali. sgt la terbaik.. Ak xigt sgt la.. walhal.ari ni isnin.. n bru blaku smlm. tp, reali..? lupa.

Oh!. ak x igt. xpe la!

Haha. bngok gle entry cmni?

xpe. Oleh yg sdemikian,,

teman la ibu atau ayah anda okeh?
walaupun anda sgt xsuka atau kurang gemar.
Mengapa..?
Kerana sbnrye, mereka bangga dan gembira ad anak seperti anda.
Mereka rsa selamat ble anda ad di sisi
Dan mereka sygkn anda. Mereka mahu anda slalu menemani mereka.

Kenapa boleh beri masa anda utk kekasih bkn parents?
Kenapa sibuk nk kuar jumpa bf/gf anda, tp bkn sibuk nk kuar teman ibu/ayah anda..?

Haha. Itu yg ak fikir. Alhamdulillah. Parents come first before Amir.
Syg sume ye...

haha...

selamat berbuka.
Insya-Allah. hari terakhir..


Selamat Hari Raya!

oh. xtau nk start dri mana. mcm2 nk cerita. reali. but 1 thing yg kna gtau dlu..


SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!
 wah.. reali, rsa cepat ye msa brlalu kn..?
rsa cm bru smlm berbuka ngn rumate. tp, rupaye dh nk sminggu la ak kt umah..? n esok raya...!! Wah3..
Jd, ksmpatan yg ad. ak reali nk minta maaf kt sume.. reali.. sgt ikhlas ni.. minta maaf...

KORANG,,,  ak slalu xcontact..
slalu xclebrate bsdy korg..
xde sme2 saat susah dan senang..
mcm2 yg ak dh uat..

Tapi, ak nk korg tau..

ak reali HARGAI kehadiran korg dlm hdup ak..
i just dont know how to show it.
btw, lots of things happened n i cant bear to act as usual..
Sori..
Ak penah gagal..
n, itu sakit.
sbb tu ak larikn diri..
time passed.. but the pain stay.

Korg, minta maaf ea..
Zahir dan batin..
Tolong.
Maafkan ak..

Selamat hari raya..


KORANG..??
dri saat ak knal ap itu kawan sehingga skang..

- Norasyikin Khamis, Marisa Thuraiya, Ahmed Zacky, Siti Fadhilah, Nur Farhanah, Shamin Aizat. Syafiq Hamdan, Syafiq Saleh, Noor Faizzul, Fatah dan bebdk SK Dato' Naning
- Geng Kerengga-Aimi, Intan, Wani, Ct, Pqah, Salwa.. Eby, Eiwa, Che Kah.. Mirul,Chepa, Azri, Iqbal, Hafizah Shafie, BWP 06/07 ,pghuni Blok 5 dan bebdk MRSM PDRM Kulim
- Aqilah Aziz, Chyfica, Nasrin Raihan, Fatimah Hajar, Zack, Azza, Mirah 'Ad, Wafa, Saidah, Miramil, Zurin, Syafa, Ainaa, bebdk 511, LDP MARESMART 08/09, Pnghuni Cempaka ngn Kenanga dan bebdk MRSM Taiping
- Rumateku-Niesa, Syaza, Husna, Adira Rosli, Hidayah Ishak, Saliha Unal, FSCC dan Subcom 10/11 , FSCC dan Subcon 11/12.. Classmate2 ak dri sem 1.. Amirul Faisal, Afiqah, Fadi, Aizul, Aainaa.. Mazlifa, Mazmira, Umie, Ira, Ain, Zahid, Atin, Mizah, Nabiha,  bebdk UIA..
- semua la yg ak kenal.. x mampu nk mention sume...

Saturday, August 27, 2011

New post in FB

Never make somebody your everything coz when they're gone, you've got nothing. by Ain Hanani. i like it!   
ok, well. dh lme x activate fb. ad skali tu ON, but then within a day. dh deactivate blek. but dis time, i'll not deactivate it again. For a long time.. for sure.
nice right? quote/words above? i simply measure it as a whole. dramatic n pathetic. but i would like to add sumthng at the sentence. its not like we got nothing. but whats left is pain n hurt.(those differs?) but as im going to b an optimistic one. i rather said, i got experienced and memories. Nice and also bad ones. thats life! Rolling in the eyes... haha
 Amir-zati? Im not sure.. My heart is longing for his attention. I hurtly need to hear his voice. Everytime.. or at least before my bedtime. i want to meet him, even my ego says NO. I love him. n he loves me too. That is our promised. But then, i realised.we need to move on. Life is not easy. We are not yet winners in this life, even in our own dreams. We are still stuck in the importance of studies.. Where money matters a lot. No education, no way. No money, no life?! Peh. I need to change.to focus.But i hate dis! I want to be like a fish. Floating n swimming whenever i want. enjoying every moment in my life. Sleeping, watching movies, stdying whenever i want. without no desperation n no force. no pressure.. (means no area? P=F/A? Haha. )but dats not me. im a human. a survival ones. and i need to move on. .. Shit.
 I believe. discipline matters. important. tp. ak bkn. n ak xnk jd ory yg bdisplin. ak nk jd free-
So itu la yg akn berubah pasni. no matter how hurt it is. i wll be. walaupn ak tpksa scrifice, tdo ak yg indah. katil ak yg best.haha. bngok! im 19 n going to 20. npe still pk nk tdo je? haishh.. n ak nk jd org yg pyabar.
" for every 1 minute imm angry, i lost 60seconds of happiness" Peh.rugi. As for Amir,
"i want to be a girl he scared to lose,the one where he cant walk away from knowing she's mad at him,the one who cant fall asleep without her voice being the last one he hears and the one he cant live without"
but postpone dlu la... i'll be that girl. later on..
Kami x bpisah. its just, we r on break.. to find the best for ourselves which in other words, it means. for our future.
 
so, at the moment.
 
1. salam ramadhan.
2. selamat hari raya
3. i just want to be- myself back.
 
 

Friday, August 26, 2011

communication la beruk!

Biar ak straight to the point.
Ak mmg xfhm MANUSIA. Oh, wuek. No interest anymore to psychology.Even once, when im ni lower form, i wish-to be. Now. all i understand is. HURT. CONFUSE. OMG, serius akukonpi!!

I dont know where to start.First, when im nervous. i reali want to write in english! cause it'll make me write politely(perhaps)but.i hate it!  i want to use Malay. So, at the end. xley nk ekspress sume ye dgn baik.. rojak. demn!

ok. LOVE? LOVER? penah dgr, kau la racun dan kau la madu. Shit! ak dh rasa sume tu. And now, ak xfhm. npe psgn yg bcinta. yg knon ye saling mcintai. tp, akhirye., perlu bpisah. bjanji shidup semati, (oh, ak tidak la smpai cmni)... bkongsi suka duka... memori2 ntah btaon2 lme ye... peh! ak tau ap. masalah  ye cuma satu. ak yakin, satu ni je mslh.. xkira kau muda, kau psgn tua atau even spouse pn. masalah pling utama dlm relationship is COMMUNICATION.

IYE. ak bkn master. malah, ak rasa. lg baik buka buku mana2.. xpn, ha. g jer bca kt Terfaktab tu. ad la sgala mcm isu. xpn bka blog si Aqram. Love Lessons for Men la, women la.. Lantak la sume tu. Cuma, ak reali nk luah based on ap yg ak pendam.. Sakit ak.. Luka kt hati ak.. Tekanan dri ak.. 
Kau tau x, ko satu2 ye laki yg ak bg hati ak ni.. sume phatian yg ak xpnah bg kt laki len.. kau je dpt.. Dan yg pling pnting. ak declare ko sbgai partner ak. Ak sggup bdepan dgn malu, rsa brsalah.. dan sgala mcm lg luka sbb ko. Tp, yg ni ko bg kt ak? Shit. ko kta cinta weyh..?? Blah la. Xpyah la. Ak ni mmg pakar nk mgungkit. peh. mcm2 bnda jd, tp ak uat lupa je.. yela, nk uat cmne.. Kali ni. cukupla.

CUKUP SAMPAI DI SINI.
Yes, woman needs it. n guy. u ignore it! Demn.
I'll just put in points coz.ive got new hobby. actuali, hobi lme yg dh lme dtggalkan.. lg baik dri pk, citer psl ko!

1. today, i put something in front of his house. dia tau ak ad. tp, dia cuma tgok je..? Bongok. dhla smlm evrythng xok..
2. Smlm, hari prtama ak blek umah. supposely, evrytng msti la baik2 je kn. but demn. tidak. in fact, it turns out into a shit! ley plak nk ngajuk2, nk marah2 org xangkt fon. walhal, bfore tu kta, kna kuar ngn mak. ak dh down. so, nk tgok fon lg uat pe kn..? pastu, tba2 nk dtg plak. bongok. mle2 ckp xnk. pastu nk. pastu xdpt, nk marah2. ble owg dh minta maaf n try fix blek. ngamuk2 lg. Bongok!!!!
3. Ak xde la mgharap blasan pape. tp, sms ucap trima kasih pn susah. ni mmg pling ****!!! bdget la weyh... klu bz pn xkn xde msa seminit nk hntr msg "Terima kasih" atau klu nk cpat sgt, ha. taip je la TQ. Tp, x.. puye selfish taik kambing! sumpah. bangang gle r dpt pkwe cmni. klu nk hrap kol? lg la. mimpi je la ak....
4. iye. ak sedar. ak sedang kterlaluan. tp, ko pun kna aware la weyh. ak mmg tgh peod. ko mcm xtau plak cycle ak cmne kn..? kta nk jd DOCTOR? ap ke bngap doc, xkn xtau.. attitude pmpuan ble tgh dlm keadaan cmni...?? pastu uat prgai.. peh, peh, peh....

Ad lg klu nk ungkit.. ni bru smlm.. huh. mmg bikin hati panas beb.. 

TAPI....... im pathetic. i thought dat i'll no longer hav the guts to cry, but still. i do it. ntah la.. ak xley nk pk pape. n, ak dh xde bygn dia lg dlm otak ak. yg ad cuma sakit hati.. kcewa.. ye. dia kte dia cinta ak. ak cinta dia. Tp, ni la kot ksudahanye... bpe kali dh uat istikharah.. tp ptunjuk tu x jelas.. Ya Allah..

xpe la. Go on je la. by the time. ak xnk plan pape. xnk luka kn diri ak. ak tgh sakit. n ak xnk jd lg sakit...
so.

1. enjoy hobi lme... yg satu itu...
2. ak nk hbeskn novel GLAMOUR by LOUISE BAGSHAWN
3. bca novel yg bru dibelikn oleh seseorg... xigt tjuk..
4. mnjadikn nombor 53.3 itu kpd 48.0
5. spend time ngn family
6. kumpul duit.
7. aim : kasut Marie Claire! oh... i found nice one kt JJ Ayer Keroh.. Wait for me ok?
n, beg Sembonia.. super-duper charming. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....... nak! =)





Monday, August 22, 2011

TAMAT kisah ko. Brsabar okeh.

Salam.
Sedih ni. Walau bkn ak, tp ak tetap merasa kehilangan tu.
Dlm hdup ak, perkra yg ak acknowldge akan uat ak sedih 3.
1. Family- spouse
2. Break-up
3. Kematian

Iye. dan skang ni ak sedih sbb break-up. Ko dan dia dh berpisah.. Sabar okeh..

Ak tau, kte baru je knal.. Umur kte brbeza. Tp ak dpt rasa, ak faham ko.. Walau haye dgn penulisan ko.
Benar la ap org kta.. Penulisan ni sesuatu yg Maha Hebat. Cukup utk buat kte faham.. ketawa dan mnagis bsama.. Ko.. bsabar okeh..? Ak tau, 6 tahun bkn masa yg singkat. Mcm2 ko dan dia buat brsama.. Masa yg korg spend bsama. Hadiah2.. Kenangan.. Oh gosh. Be strong. Ak yg kt sini pn xtau dh byk mana mgeluarkn air mata. ap plak ko..

Mesti org kte, bsabar la. Dia bkn jodoh ko.. Tiap kjadian ad hkmah. Ye. Ak pn akn kta bgitu. sabar la wey! Tp, ak nk ko tau. u're not alone okeh. Kwn2 ko ramai. Ak yakin diorg akn support ko slalu... N, ak pn klu ad pluang tu. Ak akan teman ko..
Ak kagum dgn smgt ko.. dgn kata2 ko.. dgn  diri ko.
Bsabar la.. Bsabar..

Peh. hebat rupa ye org yg bsabar. Arggh! Ak xtau. ak xpndai nk bkata2.. ak xreti nk karang ayt2 yg mmpu menengkn hati ko.. Tp dri kejauhan.. ak pohon pd Allah.. agar ko terus kuat.. trus hidup.. dan msih mmpu tsenyum walau luka tu trlalu dalam.. Bsabar la.........

Monday, August 8, 2011

AHADIAT AKASHAH, MY BEST WRITER!

Amir, buka link ini.

INTER-hisbah TOURNAMENT.

Salam.. Hisbah tu, aras la.. kira lawan ikut aras..
Kt mahallah ak, (blok asrama) ad 9 tingkat..
N, ak level 6..

Ak, merajinkn diri utk men VOLLEYBALL.
ap lg.. Lme xmen.. rndu kot.
hehe...

N, td, ktorg level 6 compete dgn level 4.
Oh yeay.. syukur. Menang!
Beza byk kot.. Tgk la spe serve kn..?? hehe.

Btw, best.

1. hilang gian nk men volley..
2. satu team ngn musuh ketat time SMAC dlu.hehe..
3. kwn baru..
4. rsa cm ringan sikit bdn. haha

Sekian... nk g terawikh. Insya-Allah..

Markah Mid-sem

Salam.
Ok, short-post.
mrkah exam dh dapat.
Alhamdulillah...

Physics 2 82.5% A-
Chems 2 88.3% A

Alhamdulillah.

Tp, cm sipi2 kn..?? Snang nk jatuh ke A dan snang lg la jtuh ke A-
Ya Allah.. berila ak kjayaan dpt A untuk subjek2 ku.. Amin.

First yer sume A- except Comp. Haha.
Apkah daya, nk dpt A 85 ke atas..
A- je la yg mmpu.. 75-84..

Doakn sy!!

Btw, congratz yer kt husna.. 96 kot physics..hehe..
Masyuk2.. Highest klas ak pn 86 jer..
Chem plak, 91. Cis.


Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Ok 2M, Meeting dan Markah

Bismillah.
straight to the point, mmg sdey gle la weyh dpt tau meeting ad mlm ni.
Smpai menangis. Dhsyat x..??
Sbb nk muntah dh woii... 
Meeting jer.. dhla, bkn sjam dua.. Tensen r..
Lg2 rmdhan ni... Ak nk stdy!!!!

SABAR : Baik la.
Ak fham, bkn sje2. mmg pnting. Cma, manusia weyh..
Pada la sikit.. Huh.

Ok. Markah exam.?
Td dh dapat fizik. Alhamdulillah. BUKAN A!
Xpe la. cter next entry.
chem dpt Khamis ni. Insya-Allah.

Sekian...

Selamat Berpuasa.
Igt zati!!
jangan marah~~~