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Bismillah

alhamdulillah, hari ni dah gi Taste Buds. Cafe kt UIA. cm grand sikit la konnnya. haha. tp, mknan dia biasa2 je. cma, td rasa sgt best ! tgh lapar, pastu mkn. mmg kaw la kan!? hehe.

Mkn ngn housmates, and puas hati. order Singapore Fried Rice, and ad sambal belacan !

Seriusli rindu nak mkn smbal belacan. Dan haruslah balik rumah kn? Klu mkn skali dgn mannga, nenas ke, kacang botol.. Pehh. Sedapnyaaaa....

Again, another tudung dibeli. dan purse baru !

I want red, but end up buying black. sbb merah takde. and design ni je la yg simple and senang. sumbat fon skali, but tak terlalu besar~

Then, beli cakes. for mid-evening meal :)

Usuali kul 10mlm, offline. and g solat, stdy. Tp dpt tau kelas cancel esok...

Mksdnya takde urge nk prepare smpai 2 sbjects esok. Dan, kul 10 tu td ad group discussion utk assgment. dan kbtulan, sbjek tu la yg kelas cncel esok. So, consider prepare la kn..?

tp, tjuk Ethics ni, bila la nk prepare. takde mood. sbb tgh tunggu org tu.. Hm....

Dan, memandgkan kelas takde esok. mksdnya, kul 12.30pm abis. and mmg rsa nk balik !

tak tau la. bru 3minggu kt sini.. tp nk compare dgn org yg blek stiap minggu? Mgkin boleh la kot balik. Makan. dhla last week, weekend cafe tutup. Ceh !  Tp, serius tak tau.. 

tgok la mcm mana.

sedih.

Cicicicincinciciciciciiiiii

Bismillah :)

Em, Alhamdulillah. dah abes khatamkan dua buku ilmiah. agak ilmiah la kn? hehe. tp, mmg ad skip2 la.. Buku tjuk stress ngn Eat right for your type.. Rasa cm nk start baca novel dah, tp sabar. sabar... tunggu hjung minggu ni ya zati? :))

dah abis baca dua buku tu, nak rehat. tak rehat pun. mesti fikir negatif. dan, haruslah segera ubah. buat something. dan akhirnya, update blog laa..

Masalah tdo makin menjadi. dah hmpir 2minggu.. cuma tak berterusan la.. tp seminggu yg lepas, smpai skang, mmg susah sgt nk tdo. Mungkin dh kena gi klinik amik presciption utk ubat tdo la kot. kalau tak, mmg tak larat nk mghadap mslh ni smpai hjung minggu ni, mggu dpn?

Ntahla~  Tggu la shari dua lagi..

Oh, nak cincin la. hari ni trigger sgt nak cincin. nak cincin emas. hehe.

Em, ibu bukan jenis yg emas2 sgt.. Ad kwn ibu tu, duit yuran anak sekolah pun byr beransur smpai hjung tahun tp emas.mak oiyyy... Mmg tak salah pun. tp malu la. Nasib baik ibu tak mcm tuu :)

Em, ti pas keje.. mmg trus nak belikan ibu emas! Wpun ibu tak suka sgt.. tp at least emas kn cm saving. hehe.. :))

Ok, back-to topic !

Nak cincin la~~ hehe..

Okay, exactly this one is chosen bcoz of the blink blink :P

Unique

reliable

devotion

curiousity

Calm

LOVE. ohh, everythng in it.

so classic. suka !

But, never for this type. yg tersembul satu biji. tak kira bpe karat pun, tp tak minat la. Tapi klu org bagi, amik je la kn? hehe

not my taste

never

Haha! Boleh leka gak la cari2 cincin kt pkcik google ni. Hehe. Nasib baik tak pergi kt website Habib ke Poh Kong ke kan? HAHA..

Ntah, best jugak ! And dah nk pukul 10. So, boleh dh la mula stdy. Insya-Allah.

**gatal nak kahwin dh kot?**

Cerita sikit la, em. td ad satu lecturer ni suh kawen cepat. if possible, tomorrow. sbb kita tak tau kita mati bila. tp, bila kita mati. anak2 akan doakan kita. so, kena la kahwin awal. bila kita mati, tak terputus doa.

katanya gtu la. dan dia siap ckp lg, siapa yg parents tak bg kawen, bgtau dia. biar dia sndiri yg contact parents and convince kn utk bg kawen muda. walaweyyy??! 

takpe la. aku pun tak rasa nk kawen awal.

malas nk cari masalah. diri sndiri pun tak terurus.

ni plak klu kawin sbaya? klu kawen dgn lelaki matang yg dh bkerja, boleh la kot nk consider :D

Sekian~

Kisah Kelas Hari Ni :)

Bismillah. Assalamualaikum.

Syukur. Syukur dgn segala kurniaan Tuhan. perancangan Tuhan yg paling elok dan sempurna. Serius, happy sgt duk kat sini. Kelas best, lecturers best, subjek best, makan okay, asrama okay, roomate, housemates okay.. Everything is so okay !!

*makan Waffle; kaya dan butter. sedap! *

Hari ni, berat sikit. sbb ad dua kelas. dan setiap kelas tu, walaupun tak exact 3 jam. tp, byk sgt input kdg2 rsa berat. Tp, Alhamdulillah. masih gagah lagi duk dpn sekali (oh, yea! hari ni mmg dtg awal dan duk dpn. semangat kn? hehe). Kdg2 ak pk, ap yg best pasal subject ni? sbb buat ak rsa dekat sgt ngn Tuhan. Yela, bila kita belajar, mengenal Tuhan, mstilah tak byk, sikit la bertambah keimanan tu. Insya-Allah. seronok. serius ! lagi2, bila Ustaz cerita kisah2 sahabat nabi.. Best la~

Ak suka sgt dgr psal kisah sahabat2 nabi, dan kisah kesusahan nabi dulu2. Suka. kdg2 cri gak kt internet, tp susah nk cri yg exact.. Sampai terfikir, Em.. nanti kahwin, sblum tdo. nk suami cerita kisah2 sahabat nabi. Amin. Ya Allah, sweetnya rasa !!!

Okay, alang2 tu nak cerita la pasal Ainul Mardhiah.

Zaman Perang Badar, tentera Islam kn sikit nak di-compare dgn tentera musyrikin. Jadi, lelaki. ap yg boleh buat diorg tertarik? Ehem. Perempuan.

Nabi Muhammad s.a.w pun kata la, siapa yg berperang bersungguh2 kerana agama, di syurga nnti akan ada bidadari yg menunggu, Ainul MArdhiah :)  Ad satu lelaki ni, mlm tu dia tdo. Dan dia bermimpi, bertemu ngn seorg prmpuan yg sgt cantik! tersgt2 cntik. takpernah dia jumpa kt dunia. Dia pun tanya la, "kamu ke Ainul Mardhiah?" pastu prmpuan tu ckp. "Bukan. ak hanyalah cleaner istana Ainul Mardhiah. Masuk la ke dlm jika kau ingin bertemu dgn Ainul Mardhiah...".

Ya Allah, cleaner je pun, tp kemaen lagi cantik ya. berdebar2 lelaki tu. Dia pun masuk. dan berjumpa dgn seorg perempuan yg berganda2 kecantikannya drpd penjaga istana. lelaki tu pun bertanya, sama ad dia Ainul MArdhiah...? Dan perempuan itu berkata, "Bukan. Ak hanyalah penjaga istana Ainul Mardhiah. Masuklah ke dalam jika kau ingin bertemu dgn dia"

Lelaki itu masuk ke dlm lg, dan berjumpa dgn perempuan yg amat2 sgt2 paling cantik berbanding dua wanita sebelum ni dan bertanya, "Kamu kah Ainul Mardhiah?"...

lalu perempuan tu pun menjawab, " Ya, aku la Ainul Mardhiah. kamu untuk ku, dan aku untuk mu"

DUSH!!! terjaga mimpi. hehe..

Keesokan harinya, lelaki tu pun bercerita kp teman2 nya dan pesan supaya tidak mmberitahu siapa2.. Selepas Perang, lelaki yg mendengar kisah mimpi tu mencari2 lelaki yg bermimpi tu dan akhirnya menemui dia syahid. Syahid menegakkan agama Allah. Lalu, diceritakan kisah mimpi tu kpd Rasulullah.. Rasulullah pun menjawab " Dia sedang bersama dgn Ainul Mardhiah skrg ni..."

Wahhhhh.... Best kan? *erm.jgn taye detail2 ye.sy taip ap yg sy dgr*

Tapi, seronokla bila dgr. Cerita mngenai balasan Allah ni, boleh kita jadikan motivation utk kita perbaiki moral dan teguhkan iman. *wah, cm point dlm notes Ethics and Fiqh je*

Ok la. nak rehat jap. Tapi nk share lg satu.

Inculcation of Moral Values

1. Determination

2. Motivation

3. Training

4. Environment

Memang best la duk sini. Mlm ni, mkn mee kari !! :)

and oops. terbeli tudung lagi tadi. mana la tak hepi kan? hehee

sekian~

Library UIAM Gombak~

Bismillah

IIUM Gombak Library :)

Excited sikit letak gmbr. walhal cilok je dri website IIUM. Malas la plak nk tgkap gmbr. sbb org slalu lalu lalang. so, next time ye? :)

Library.

Bkn nak cerita ap yg ad kt library etc. Cuma ye, tahukah anda? Cehh. Buat trivia sikit.. hehe.

Em, spnjg study kt CFS, xpenah pun pinjam buku. NEVER. tapi, kt sini. bru minggu kedua tp dh total 8 books dipinjam. Seronoknya~~

Hari ni kelas The Islamic Worldview, 9.30-12.30 pm cancel. Dr Latiff masuk and bgtau kelas cancel. Frust gk la.. tp bgus. sbb ad org amik seat ak yg dpan skali. So, kesian. *jahat*

Tp tak kisah pun, sbb ktorg yg jln santai2.. tp ok la kn, tiba awal 15minit? ak cm pelik klu org gi kelas awal gila. takpe la. sblm ni second row, skang diorg first. so, esok? kena gerak awal ke? ntah la~ bkn tmpt yg penting, tp suara Dr tak berapa nk kuat la.. dan frust sbb 6minggu lg je final. Takde la exam-oriented sgt pun. cuma best tau belajar. :))

So, pas takde class, ktorg gi cari kelas lain. sbb taknak burn cmtu je. Cari2, smpai stalk ad satu kelas ni. Garang gila lecturer dia. org arab. Berdebar dh nk masuk. Pastu, buka sikit tingkap tu, mmg sah kena marah. and takde maknanya la.. kelas lain plak, subjek lain. jd, cm biasa. bergegas ke tmpt favret  ak skang ni, selain cafe.. Library~~  <3

Everytime gi Library, msti serbu Leisure Reading Area. hehe. Amik Reader's Digest. Duk kt sofa. Fuhh. Layannn... td, plgkan novel sblm ni. dan haruslah cari 2 lagi novel ganti minggu ni. Biar Jumaat tu jd Hari Air Mata. hahaaa.. Ha, excited ni. td amik novel Janji Assila by Liana Afiera Malik. Mmg expect something la kn. Favret author! Mudah2an dpt input..

Pinjam 5 buku tadi,

Janji Assila- Liana Afiera Malik

the graveyard shift- Jack Higgins

Eat right for your type- Dr Peter J. D'Adamo with Catherine Whitney

Stress- Prof. Greg Wilkinson

25 natural ways to relieve headaches- Romy Fox

2 novel weekend. yg lagi 3 tu during masa lapang. At least I have something else to do, rather than thinking of something unecessary. dah la slalu lead to sadness. haishh.

So, nak tdo jap! Solat. Dan Insya-Allah, nk cover subject hari ni dan prepare utk esok.

Ucapan yg baik merupakan sedekah & setiap langkah yg diayunkannya menuju sholat(berjamaah)merupakan sedekah(HR Bukhari)

Sekian~

Gombak : Lectures UNGS

Bismillah.

Kali ni nak cerita psl kt Gombak sikit.

Cukup la kn? dok emosi memanjang. bosan. bosan. 

walaupn ak terima diri ak seadanya. tp i have to take a break from this feeling2.

Alright, we re back into business bebeh!

Rasanya, ni entry ke 4 atau 5 berkisar psl ap yg berlaku bila ak kt Gombak. Kali ni nk la citer psl lectures dan lecturers UNGS ni..

First skali, klu UNGS ni. jgn taye ak ap mksud dia. hee. mcm coding subject la. UNGS ni adlah requirement subject bebdk uia nk grad. klu time foundation ad FIM yg mana amik Understanding Islam/Religion In Malaysia dan Basic Themes of Quran bru grad. Usuali UNGS ni kena amik 3 sem. sebab 2050 tak ley preceed 2040. kena ikut turn.. 2030, 2040, 2050... Tapi for case ktorg ni, have to ! Kononnya kt main camp dh busy. Medic+Denti sbb ikut sistem blok (ti ak cerita plak ya psl sistem blok) dan Nursing katanya sbb first year dh start posting kt hospital :)

UNGS ad 3 subjects

2030  The Islamic Worldview

2040  Islam, Knowledge and Civilization

2050  Ethics and Fiqh for everyday life

So, why we have to complete this module?

because the university want to produce medical practitioners, engineers etc with a very good understanding in Islam and upheld the responsibility as Muslim.

Insya-Allah.

Lecturer plak best2. Ad 2 org. code 2030 ngn 2050 oleh Dr Abdul latiff, Malaysian. 2040 oleh Dr Tijani Ahmad Ashimi, Nigerian. Best gila !!

Dua2 lecturer ni mmg agak berbeza. satu strict sikit, satu sempoi2. tp dua2 sama hebat. sama best. Alhamdulillah, syukur sgt !!  Ak section 1. kwn2 yg lain, tak silap section 3 ke 4 dpt lecturer yg gila indie. mksudnya, notes tak bagi, and tak ajar pun. student yg kena pergi library and present kt other classmates. katanya, "u do the talking, i'll do the marking". Eishhh. kesin diorg..  ak, dlm kelas. nganga. amik semua yg diajar. awal2 ni, takde presentation pape lg. syukur.

Kelas, Isnin 2030 3jam.

Selasa 2040, 2050 6jam.

Senang kata, Isnin, rabu 3 jam. yg lain 6jam. 

Best. dh belajar 3 subject je. mula2 nervous gk la , takut tertdo dh stret 3jam, subjek sama. tp so far. okay lagi. and, aku duk dpn sekali! haha. 

Yg paling best, bila duk dpn... mmg kena attack la dgn lecturer.. abes dua2 pandang ak, ketagih opinion ak. pehh.. mana smpat nk tdo uollls....? hehe.

Tapi best. dan ak still akan duk dpn.. Ironinya, satu row sister ad 5seats. tp 3 org je yg duk. brothers plak ad dlm 6. tp sorg dua je duk. hehe...

Takpe2. Moga ilmu tu lebih berkat. lecturer pun doa lebih ke? hehe...

Ha, klu taye blajar psl apa. Secara kasarnya, cm tajuk Knowledge, revelation, hukum2 cth cm zodiac, sihir.. worldview westerns, scientisicm, philosophism.. em lebih krg camtu la.. dan mmg kena byk hafal potongan ayat Quran. cm satu point satu ayat. klu importance of knowledge, ad 9points. kena hurai semua. dan setiap satu dgm potongan ayt. ehemmm

Best :)

Moga dpt score sume A, utk dunia an akhirat.

sekian~

Untuk esok.

Bismillah. assalamualaikum.

Alhamdulillah, hari ni lancar. Mata yg masih sakit tp tak menghalang tgok beberapa episod TVD. nk buat mcm mana.. stdy mmg tak la hari. rehat. rehat. rehat.

penat gk bila terbaring ni.. tp gerak lebih2, lain plak jd nya. kan best klu ad org kol, teman. taye keadaan skang mcm ne. takpun, org message ke.. skang ni, dah tak se-busy dulu. sehari nk dpt 10 sms pun tak. dan ak pun tak nak message org semata2 aku bosan. aku just nk message bila ak rasa aku perlu. Macam qila, mirul. Sebab tu message...

Tapi, walaupun aku message bila perlu, sebolehnya taknak la susahkan diorg. cukupla, ak doakan kesejahteraan diorg. hisshhh. tetba rindu kt diorg.. 

Insya-Allah, esok dh kena start ad focus balik. cukup rehat dh hari. mudah2an diberi kekuatan.

so, plan...

Insya-Allah, sabtu---->>

After matsurat, nk jalan2 kt sini. takpayah jauh2, tp sekadar amik angin. dengar lagu. berangan. 

katanya, berkabus pagi2 kt sini. cm best je :)

pastu, study. buat revision.

study lagi.

makan.

ubat.

tdo.

Moga segala urusan dipermudahkan.

Tengah usahakn something. istikharah utk dptkan petunjuk yg lebih pasti.

Once you finally let someone have you, sometimes they stop doing what it took to get you :'(

Dan Mimpi pun berguguran...

Bismillah

p/s : Entry melalut dan sgt jiwang. Mohon tiada yg ter-baca.

Tadi sebenarnya, sampai nk buat 2, 3 entry. Kesudahannya, spend time chat kt fb. dgn seorang rakan. Baik orgnya. Jadi mmg doakan agar dia pun dapat psgn yg baik :)

Hari ni, aku tak plan apa2 pun.

Aku cuma nak rehat~

Tgn injured, kaki pun. Sakit2 lain pun muncul dan hilang sesuka hati.

Tapi, biar la. sekurang2nya bila sakit, ak rasa dkt dgn Tuhan.

"Ya Allah, andai dgn kesakitan yg menimpa diriku membuatkn ku smakin dekat kpd-Mu. Hadiahkan peringatan-Mu itu. Ak redha"

Doa yg dituturkan bila ak rsa sakit..

Sejak ak form 5, ak. em, takpe la.

Bagi ak, biarlah sakit di badan, bukannya di hati. Sekurangnya kita tau Allah syg kita bila ditimpakan penyakit. Tp, kalau sakit hati? sukar sekali nk berhusnuzon dgn org yg melukai. Berilah seribu alasan, kesakitan tu akan membalas sejuta alasan utk menjauhi, utk membenci.

Mesti tak faham kn?

Takpe la. motif buat entry ni bkn utk sesiapa. diri sendiri.

utk ketenangan. utk diri sndiri.

utk aku.

Hari ni terasa hidup bermakna.

Titik-titik air mata yang menemani sejak awal subuh.

berlarutan dgn perbincangan kt ym..

bersahutan dgn setiap helaian novel.

Ya, novel Liana Afiera Malik- Dan Mimpi Pun Berguguran. terbaik !!

tak dapat ku ungkap, betapa terharunya dgn kisahnya. Skrip manusia, ilham dri Allah. novel tu sgt2 menghibakan. Perjuangan cinta, pengorbanan, kesabaran dan keredhaan atas takdir Tuhan.

Terbayang balik babak2 dlm tu trus buat ak emosi semula. Ciss. hebat btol. kosong dah rasanya tangki air mata utk sbln dua ni. Mana taknya, sakit2 mata , hidung.. 

Saiful Badar, watak lelaki yg akan ak ingati smpai bila pun. Kasihnya kt dia. wpun hanya dalam novel. Serupa lelaki idaman aku. Ak sebenarnya pun dah lupa apa lelaki idamanku. Semenjak bersama dgn dia, semuanya dh cukup. Cuma perbincangan hari ni mengenai keperluan, olahan novel mengenai pengorbanan dan kasih sayang yg tak terhingga. Rasanya, tak salah ak nak impikn lelaki idaman :)

" Tidurku tidak lagi pulas

Mimpi yang datang dibayangi senyummu

Siang yang panjang kian membosanku

Malam yang pendek terasa bertahun waktuku

Jiwaku merintih sepi apabila rindu mengocak dada"

Entah nape rsa nk quote yg ni. hehe. byk lagi. tp bila baca tu indah2 belaka.

seronoknya, bila ad lelaki yg mengasihi dan memberikan perhatian,

yg niatnya ingin bersama ke syurga

yg sering memberi surat2 berisi kalimah cinta

ditemani dgn ingatan tulus ikhlas

*peh, apehal jiwang sgt ni...............*

Tapi tak kira, nk quote yg ni.. *lap air mata*

" Izrail sedang memanggil, abang harus pergi. Jangan menangis, tapi bacalah al-Quran untuk abang tanda cinta kasihmu" 

Isk, isk, isk.. sedih gilaa...

Watak lelaki yg syg penyayang. Ak yg baca ni pun rsa disayangi.hehe. Dah berulang kali dia cakap dia sygkn perempuan tu.. Sukanya. Mungkin watak dlm novel. tp, biarlah.

Eh, nak tulis sebab apa ntah? takpe la.

nak prepare utk solat.

Pastu rehat.

Nak rehatkan minda, hati dan yg seangkatan dgnnya.

Cinta tak semesti bersama~

jgn bagi 'makna'

Bismillah,

quoted something from Islamic Worldview-UNGS class.

By Victor Frankle who promotes Logotherapy, the therapy of meaning.

"WHO has WHY to love will strive any HOW"

Taknak hurai pape. Pandai2 la.

Cuma satu pesanan ringkas.

Jgn sesuka hati bagi makna hidup anda kepada orang lain. Kelak, apabila dia pergi. Dia akan pergi bersama makna hidup anda.

Bagilah makna hidup anda kepada Dia. sentiasa ada.

Walaupun anda pergi jauh Dia.

Dia yg ku maksudkan, Tuhanku Yang Maha Satu. Yang Maha Pemurah.

transition process to be a vampire #ngarut

Bismillah.

Assalamualaikum :)

Okay, jangan baca. sbb nak mengarut.

gara2 tgok TVD- The Vampire Diaries. heee...

Em, bila vampire bg darah kt human, that human will go through a transition process. If the human do not feed any blood, then he/she will die. by feeding blood, being the vampire completely.

Heeehhhhh.

Actually, im kinda feel like in the transition process.

But its not being vampire from human. 

unluckily to say, perhaps from a relationship to single.(?)

still waiting the blood (his answers). kuikuikui..

Ive got nothing else to say.

pasrah habis dah ni.

Cuma dh start la bygan2 nya.. especiali yg satu ni. bila favourite memories ak cm melawan. Ntah laa.. Takpe, yang lain2, biarlah aku simpan sorg~~

Thanks Akukonpi.

Thanks Twitter.

*Thanks to Allah tu slalu la. tp tulis gk la. kang org yg baca kata tak ingat Tuhan plak*

Okay...

Nak baca novel jap..

He is single(.)

Bismillah.

Assalamualaikum..

Syukur, sekarang ni dlm keadaan terkawal. Mungkin berkat solat jemaah selepas berbuka sama2 tadi. alhamdulillah. best ada akak DQ (Darul Quran; diorg dah hafal satu Quran) sbb dia imamkan td. heee. 

Ok la, psl relationship kita. kenapa?

Kalau betul nak single, bg tau la. sbb relationship ni kan antara kita. dua org. nape nak biar orang lain yg tau dulu sblm empunya bdn.. Awak ni relationship ngn sy ke ngn diorg?

Penting lg la diorg tu drpd sy..? mcm tu ke?

Haishh. Bukan kali pertama ni..

Betul ke nak single?? Maksudnya nak putuskan hubungan ni..?

Ye la kot.. Hari ulgbln kita pun dh tak nak wish. mungkin dh tak bermakna bg awk..

Kalau smlm, 18hb. genap la 43 bulan kita bersama. bukan baru 43 hari. tp 43 bulan. Lebih dah drpd 1200 hari.

Takpe. Kalau betul nak pergi. Pergi la. sy faham. 

yela, Life is too short to stress out your life with people who doesnt deserve for u. 

cukup la hampir 4tahun ni, drpd nk terus buang masa masing2..

Seriously, If you want to go. Contact me, FB ke msg ke, and i'll let you go. But, that will be the very end of us. Dont you ever dare to think to find me back after you have done with your studies. Never will i accept you back. Dan kalau betul la jodoh ke apa.

Ntah la. *sakit sangat nnti. tak rsa mampu*

Tapi, kalau rsa tak. Kalau alasan tukar relationship tu sbb terasa dgn entry2 sy. Terasa yg sy marah2 dan tak perlukan awk lagi. kalau tukar sbb awk assume sy yg taknak dgn awk. atau ap je la fikiran songsang yg ada, dan awk nyesal dgn apa yg awk buat sbb awk masih perlukan sy..

Apa lagi, mcm biasa la.

Minta maaf. Explain.

Jgn fikir sbb sy tak contact, sy ignored awk. Mmg sy dah marah. tapi mcm mana sy nak benci? Takkan la masih tak tau betapa hot-temper nya sy ni? Lagipun, kn awk tu nk exam. Sy dah tak nak bebankn awk. Nak awk tu fokus. Lagipun, marah2 time tu je.. Hm.

Rasanya, ni effort terakhir yg sy akan buat. sbb kita dua2 pun nak masing2 yg start dlu?

Ive done my part. Now, its your time. Kalau takde apa2, okay.

Last but not least.

One of the hardest decisions you’ll ever face in life is choosing 

whether to walk away or try harder.

If you really want to go, go.

But if you want to stay, stay.

Apa pun, sy redha.

Tapi selamanya, kita tamat jika pergi tu pilihan awk.

rahmat Allah untuk kawan2~ *UNGS*

Bismillah.

Assalamualaikum.

Keep praying for what you want. impossibility and possibility are merely concepts of your mind, to Allah nothing is impossible.

Subhanallah~

Terlalu byk rahmat Allah, cuma kali ni nk share. beberapa org kawan sy dpt Medic !! Alhamdulillah. Diorg drpd ALLHS, tp dpt offer utk amik Medic..

Rezeki kan? sbb ad sorg ni dulu nak medic. tp kena reject. Pastu, last sem ritu dpt invitation msuk Pharmacy sbb ad kekosongan. dan beberapa hari lepas, dpt kol di-invite masuk Medic. pergi UIA Kuantan, interview. pastu, dpt result. skang ni dh kt UIA Gombak, sama2 ktorg amik UNGS. Subhanallah.. 

Yg lagi sorg tu plak, nk tukar Pharmacy(maybe nk ke Medic sbnrnya) tp baru-baru ni dpt offer utk Medic. 

Okay, klu U lain msti cm pelik dgn sistem UIA. tp ktorg mmg uncertain, even 2 tahun amik asasi.

Mana tak nya, elok2 program satu tahun, kena extend satu tahun stgah sbb kena amik kelas Arab. then, jadi dua tahun plak, sbb subjek degree kena amik time asasi lagi. memang mula2 dulu ak ngn roomate cm, alah.. lg baik masuk matrik. setahun je.. takpun kolej mara. geram. Tp, sbb ikut nasihat mak, nak anak dia ni jadi budak baik. Ikut je la.. masuk UIA...

dan Alhamdulillah, makin lama kt UIA, ak seriously makin syg yg UIA.. environment.. studies.. sume la. SYUKUR ! yg pasal tukar2 course ni, dlu dlm entry before2 ni kan ak cm penah konpius nak minta tukar ke tak... ntah entry tahun berapa ntah. tapi ak, syukur sgt. sbb dulu dpt ilham, minta tukar awal2.. And tak kena reject, cuma KIV. Pas score, bru la dpt Pharmacy.. Then, minta utk Denti, interview. Alhamdulillah dapat.

Kiranya, dlm kes ak, ak syukur sgt sbb takde heart broken. dan setiap step yg aku lalui tu, ak rasa cm lagi kuat.. Contoh bila dh KIV, takkan nk memain kn? (Ya, mmg sume allah yg tentukan, tp kita kena la usaha. ye dak?)  Okay, bila KIV. mmg struggle. syukur dpt 4plat. Then, bru la masuk Pharmacy. Pastu, ni nk compete dgn bebdk Denti ni, struggle lagi. Dan syukur, Allah bg rasa 4plat. Interview pun best dan skang ni Dentistry.

memang betul la kn? Allah takkan bagi kita ujian tu kalau kita tak mampu. Kawan2 ak ni adalah orang yg kuat. Seriusli, kalau ak. pas kena reject... msti tawar hati dhla. Tak byk, sikit. mmg sedih la kn? konon2nya, tak dpt capai cita2... Pastu maybe study ke laut.. Sbb tu ak ditimpa ujian mcm kwn2 ak ni. Mungkin...

Tp, kwn2 ku yg dpt medic. congrats korg !! Seriusli happy utk korg. sbb ak cm faham kot perasaan tu. dan, korg nangis kn time dpt offer thru call tu? heeee.... Takpe2 . Tangisan kegembiraan..

Okay, wpun korg kata korg ni just fill in the blanks. tp hello???! bdk yg asalnya Medic pun tak dpt further amik Medic tau.. tp korg, drpd ALLHS dapat. Dan mestila pointer korg bkn calang2. heee... Lagi2 plak kita pernah sekelas, dan korg mmg deserve la weyy! RAJIN.   :D

Syukur. Ak taknak jeles2, for what kn? Ak belajar satu definisi SUCCESS yg baru. bila mana, kejayaan tu bkn bila kita lebih baik drpd org lain. tp bila kita lebih baik drpd hari yg smlm dan bersama2 kwn kita mendapat yg terbaik !

Insya-Allah..

All the best ya semua. Tak kira Medic, dentist, Allhs~ Audio, opto ke apa...

Yg penting. kita usaha sungguh2. Belajar sgguh2.. Dan berbakti semula utk msyarakat..

*semangat*

Oh, kelas tadi. Okay. tak complete 3hrs sbb ad technical probs. dlm sejam stgh je.. tu yg pergi ke library.

Esok ad 2 kelas. ethics & Fiqh For Everyday Life by Dr Latiff from 9.30am-12.30pm and Islam, Knowledge and Civilization by Dr Ahmed Tijani 2pm-5pm.

May Allah bless~~

*nak start baca novel. tadi pinjam dua novel dari library. hehe*

petang rahmat bersama senior~

Bismillah

Assalamualaikum (^^.)

Alhamdulillah.

Mari kita lupakan semalam dan bina bahagia untuk hari esok.

*Terasa nak guna bahasa baku*

Sejujurnya, aku takkan menipu dan menyangkal kebenaran. Hari ini dan semalam bukan antara hari terbaik untukku. tapi Allah tu Maha Mendengar. Syukur kerana pengharapan ku berbalas.

Petang tadi, Allah lembutkan hati untuk mengikuti sesi perjumpaan bersama akak senior.. Walaupun teman sebilik tak dapat ikut sama, mujur dikuatkan jua hati ni untuk pergi. Rupa-rupanya, keluar bilik. Pergi ramai-ramai.

lama takde sesi usrah, tazkirah ringkas macam petang tadi. Agak terharu. bantuan tu tiba bila hati betul dalam keadaan sunyi. syukur sebab Allah ilhamkan untuk pergi. Banyak yang dikongsi oleh tiga akak yang sudi datang dari Kuantan walhal peperiksaan bakal menjelma tidak lama lagi. moga Allah permudahkan urusan mereka.

Hadith Riwayat Muslim ;

Barangsiapa menghilangkan satu kesusahan dunia dari seorang mukmin, Allah akan menghilangkan daripadanya satu kesusahan di Hari Kiamat.

Subhanallah~

Perkongsian yang banyak membantu. Untuk menghadapi sesi pembelajaran di UIA Kuantan pada bulan 9 kelak, dan juga mengisi kekosongan dalam hati. Seronok~ Rasa cam dalam rahmat Allah. terutama bila diingatkan betapa bertuahnya kita dipilih oleh Allah untuk belajar, dan insya-Allah menyumbangkan sesuatu pada masyarakat nanti.

Akak yang datang tadi terdiri daripada, Kak Sarah (Tahun Akhir), Kak Aimi (Tahun 4) dan Kak Dayah (Tahun 3). Terharu bila mereka masih teringatkan adik junior dan sudi meluangkan masa. Walhal peperiksaan seminggu dua sahaja lagi. Perjalanan entah berapa jam. Kuantan- Gombak. Moga Allah permudahkan.

Paling seronok bila diceritakan tentang hubungan antara doktor dan pesakit. Siap dijemput hadir datang kenduri kahwin la, nak layan pesakit kanak2 la. Macam-macam. tak sabar ! 

Em, takpe. Chill dulu zati~  :)

Okay, bahasa baku yang tak berapa nak baku. Teruk kan? Elok la tu. bebudak UIA memang kena amik subjek Bahasa melayu pun. Tapi dengarnya critical course dikecualikan?

Harap-harap la. *AMIN*

hehe.

Simply stated, #Pisces tend to think more with their heart than with pure logic.

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Always remeber to forget the troubles that passed away. But, never forget to remeber, the blessings that come each day! Insya-Allah.

Esok dah mula kelas. Alhamdulillah, satu je. Islamic Worldview by Dr Ahmad latiff. 9.30 am - 12.30 pm 

deleting your comment ? #Favourite

Bismillah

*patience. save me*

Comments;

1st skali.. mksd *** giv some privacy 2.. privacy *** on facebooking.. not log in with my acc.. 2nd, nk marah2 kt *** atas ksalahan sndiri.. wtf.. 3rd.. its ok for me utk tman *************.. xde msalah pn.. xpyah la ************** nk smpi begging.. kalo intrnet ni ok.. each time *** on n nmpk ******************* on.. *** akn chat punye..

p/s: laina 2 overly attached girlfriend.. die tgh top kt 9gag.com... link vid die.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yh0AhrY9GjA

*** Person 1
***************** Person 2. the victim. heeehee

Right after minutes reading the comments, completely burst out kt Twitter. So, to make it easier. I will just copy paste my tweets ! EASY.

Just because, i said im stalking you, doesnt mean I really do. PERASAN !

Hey, when u liked someone kt FB, it shows on ur FB page ! kesian. tak tau ke?

Dont. Dont you ever try to be angry with me. Its my right to feel whatever I want. If u dislike, SILA BLAHH !

and hello? nk privacy while facebooking..? Unfriend la bodoh. takpun, takpayah ada friend. Bangang.

Eishh, im fasting today. and what a holy day today. Damn u Satan !

This feeling is not right. The more anger I felt, the more pain I have to bear ~

Nak diam boleh. tapi otak jammed.

See. what we have done? ohmaiii. Is this because of that girl? Or because of my tweets before where I had mentioned that " im stalking and who is Laina" .?? seriously, what are the reasons..?

I thing have voiced out my opinion about your privacy on facebooking. Sila la. nk sgt privacy facebooking tu kan? I have deactivate my fb. Easy.

Well, u have told me earlier that, whenever you log in fb, u'll visit mine. and so do I. and it happened that I saw u liked HER. And tak kesah mana pun? I thought, she is some entertainer or singer there. Never hav I mentioned, please dont liked her at FB. never ! but then, u harshly !

Dhla, tunggu macam apa sbb line kt sana yg tak betul. And dah minta kn some sweet words. Sebab pasni tak contact dh. tp ap yg dapat? tetba nk kena plak psl care kt privacy on facebooking bkn psl care kt aku. Bangang. And your second line comment, marah2 atas kesalahan sndiri. WTF ? guna WTF? biadap.

Alhamdulillah. its good. that because I am too way smart and better than you. I have discover the real reasons. Privacy on facebooking just because of that some random woman? and let me feel upset? *hear me, im not angry from the first but just upset.But now, Im in anger*

Incredibly stupid !

Alhamdulillah.. All my anger, turns out better but still stupid enough to embarrass myself in front of my friends jt Twitter and here, my blog.

But its okay. I dare to write in here, because I believe. This mistakes, wont have to be deleted but kept here so that I will remember. Just remember...

~ The less you care, the happier you will be ~

unreasonably of A heart ache

Without respect, love is lost.

Without caring, love is boring.

without honesty, love is unhappy.

Without trust, love is unstable.

I have lost the respect, and caring? 

honesty, trust? what is that words mean for?

And after all, these words reappeared for thousand times,

Its better to break your own heart by leaving, rather than having that person break your heart every day you are with them.

*im not making sense here. its not evryday.

But a day feeling hurt agonised 100days feeling happy

Haaahhhaa, good tweets !

Losing a #Pisces is like losing a fish. They swim to unreachable depths.

and the deeper, they go, the more they offer to who ever is next.

But at the ends,,

Never say goodbye when you still want to try.

Never give up when you can still take it.

Never say you dont love them when you cant let go.

Okay. enough is enough..

Im going to stop to think.

perform wudhu, doing some prayers cause luckily ive slept few hours after mgrib.

And i will forget about tonight.

which im certain, im not !

Girls, you are very lucky to have someone who is willingly to be by your side when you dont even need him. Untrue for me, cause I have to beg.

especially during his exam.

am I too stupid?

privacy and heart ache

bismillah.

yes. everyone needs privacy.

I have nothing else to say.

cause im hurt. and its hurt.

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have you ever read novels or watch movie on vampires?

its okay. let me tell u A FACT about vampire,

despite the presence of vampire itself a myth?

When somebody/someone turned into vampire, their emotions got intense. heightened.

And its completely the same when you are in love.

The person you love, you cared so much. 

When they talk a word. and you find it hurtful.

Eventually, you will not just feeling hurt, but almost being killed !

*exaggerate*

Enough.

I will not do something permanently stupid just because I am temporarily upset.

But, ive just deactivate my facebook.

*hehh

I know, its my fault. but as i was said before. I have no intention to check, investigate all of your activities. And fuck you!

The memories are here. Willingly to accompanying me.

Once upon a time, deceiving me. When u have ur own PRIVACY !

I have my right to feel upset because you are one of the person I treasured the most. I apologized so many times because Im really sorry for that. In return, could you give me some compassion?

But the reality?

# this is my problem, when im sad. i'll think deeply wrong and wild.

After all, its me.

And this time. 

*think*

*emotion*

*confused*

*love/hatred*

Really a fine line between them.

Ill give you privacy. And ill give you FREEDOM.

im going to regret later for doing this. but who cares?

Its me after all.

Again and again.

the same drama~