Saturday, March 31, 2012

mars vs venus




great.

game plan : the fresh start

Bismillah. Assalamualaikum :)

Kt umah.. Seronok gilaa. Mkn, minum, tdo. sume pun TERLEBIH cukup. haha.
Bkn tu je, emm.. kasih syg pun sama. romance pun sme. ehem2. hahaa.. *cm bongek kan?

Orait, my fresh start.

After briefing Pmacy, kbtulan sorg2 dlm bilik. sgguh2 nangis. Sbb rsa cm tachingg gle.. tachingg ble pk probability xdpt Denti. Competition.. nges sungguh.. Well, actuali. bcmpur baur. ad reason lain la.. But , trus discuss dgn Dia. Minta ketenangan dri Nya.. Rsa lega. Rsa nk cuba gak utk Denti..

Before balik umah, dh pk psl nk further denti or stay pmcy. tp still minta opinion kwn2. yela, ne nak tau Allah ad turunkn ilham melalui diorg ke?..
Thnks rumate.. Qila, Eby, pokjat, Kak Najwa.. even, kwn kpd kwn2.. classmate..
xlupa jugak Amir ridwan mok2.. 

then, ikut la pesanan bro Fadhil, bincang dlu ngn family.. Personally, in evrythng matter with my study, rsa nya jarang sgt minta opinion from my family, parents. nope. coz i know. they always leave it to me. depends on me. HAHA. but still, cter je la. n, xsgka, positif responnya. 

positif. Mak ak, sgguh2 nk tau. smpai kerut2 dahi nya bila ak kata xdpt, kena cmpak nursing or biosc.. siap kompelin2 sgala bagai. seronok plak. HAHA. adik2 ak plak suh stay pmacy. yela, diorg pun tau. kakak diorg yg perengus ni mmg xlayak la kn jd nurse? Ya Allah. minta dijauhkan..

Then. this is it.

My fresh start.

Struggling for this one-month for final paper early May.

Will take this as a trial test attitude, klu mampu konsisten, then insya-Allah.

N, ill just strive for it. Allah dh tetapkn semuanya di Luh Mahfuz. dan usaha kita yg penting skang ni. Terigt janji Allah dlm Quran. " Allah xkn mghampakan hambaNya yg meminta dan berusaha" - ( ni translation bukan ayat direct diambil dri Quran tau.)  N apa pun, keputusanNya, ak redha. Sbb setiap kejadian ad hikmahnya.

As for now, Doa. Effort. Tawakkal.

And I will leave the rest to Allah

** huahhh.. rasa nk nanges uat entry ni**


Friday, March 30, 2012

Curang? Jangan setia?

Bismillah. Assalamualaikum.

Entry ringkas. Curang?  Apa definisi curang bg korg?

Setiap org berbeza kn? Ad tu, bila partner dia chat ngn gender lain pun dikira curang. Terpulang la apa, sampai mana korg nk describe apa tu curang.

Tp, please. Be strong. In whatever happens, jgn la setia dgn org yg salah.

Ya, kita pun xtau. Dia tu jodoh kita ke x kn? Ye la, dh kawen pun ad yg cerai. Skang mgkin xuat hal. Baik, bahagia, gaduh2 sikit.. sedih.. tp, normal la kn.. But, PLEASE. jgn setia dgn org yg salah.

At the moment, klu korg kapel. dh cerah, terang lg bersuluh partner korg ad affair dgn org lain. siap admit. minta2 maaf ngn korg. tp, still xnk pisah ngn korg, n xnk break jugak dgn kekasih gelap tuu. dia adalah org yg salah. org yg xtepat. and.

TOLONG la.. TOLONG laa... 
Jangan setia dgn org yg salah.

Cinta tak buta, org yg bercinta tu buta.

Bertahan skang ni. Susah skang ni je kn klu breakup. Drpd, terus stay??

Ya Allah, permudahknla urusan dia.

Be strong. Ak harap. ak, kau. korg. Please. Jgn setia dgn org yg salah!

Yg x kapel tu. Tahniah. Tu keputusan yg bijak. :))

Tp, klu taye ak? Ak akan terus setia. Dan berdoa. Moga Allah mmpermudahkn urusan kami, dan moga keluarga kmi terus mmberikan sokongan dan restu. Amin.

Ta.


Wednesday, March 28, 2012

game plan.

Bismillah. Assalamualaikum :)

Alhamdulillah, keje siap dah. so, i grab this oppurtunity nk share about my new challenge. a new risk! * xnk la anggap as a problem.

Well, teka la pasal apa..???

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DENTISTRY!!

Okay, kelmarin, on Monday ad short briefing for Pharmacy students. dgn berat hatinya, pun pergi lah. And syukur tak uat perangai malas nk g. sbb briefing tu during lunch hour 1-2pm. Gilaaa.
Hot gila kot discussion during briefing tu.

Okay, streamlining process dh makin dekat. Skang ni la, masing2 akan amik peluang nk tukar dri Pmcy ke Medic or Denti? n ad juga yg nk stay. Apa2 pun, tiga2 critical courses ni. KOMPEM!! dpt scholarship JPA.

Ok, ak? Berada kt Pmcy skang ni bkn sbb nk Pmacy tp sbb nk Denti. Cuma, GREAT RISK la klu ak nk further bnda tu.

Bebdk pmacy skang ad 168 org. n seat kt main campus ad 135org. Medic 120org. n dentistry HANYA 43 org SAHAJA. okay, ulang ye. 43 orang!! 

Utk Medic , Denti ad interview. tp klu spe2 yg stay Pmacy, xde interview. Minta, CGPA lepas. SAH2!! jd bdk Pmacy, siap dpt scholarship bg spe yg masih xdpt la skang..

Minggu depan, akan start keluar borang2. Kalau ak nk tukar Denti, kiranya. ak akan amik borang MERAH. First choice Denti n automatic Pmacy jd 2nd choice. Then, kena tunggu dia kuarkn shortlist nama spe2 yg layak di interview. Klu xlayak intrview, sah2 la ZERO chances nk g utk Denti. Okay, klu dipanggil utk intrview. Based on curent CGPA. Then, kena submit sekali result SPM. kena refer Ko-ku marks, n last but not least. appearance la.. N semestinya, what matters the most is during ur interview! n result SPM la kn?? sbb klu CGPA xlepas, sah2 la x dipggil utk intrview.

Otherwise, nk stay Pmacy. Amik borang BIRU. insya-Allah, Bro Fadil kata kompem dapat klu CGPA lepas. Insya-Allah la, dapat. Klu nk stay Pmacy tu. Ura-ura nya, dri 168org, ad 30++ yg xlepas CGPA minimum 3.50. so, mgkin tggal 135 cukup2 je. n for sure, akan ad yg nk g utk medic. n utk denti. so, mmg lepas la kn?? ni klu Pmacy tu first choice la..

Okay, great risk tu. bila, dh dipnggil utk interview. tp, x dipilih utk denti. So, kte akan trun ke 2nd choice, Pmacy. n, org2 yg stay kt Pmacy tu dh cukup. Although CGPA kte lg tinggi dri dia, yg kt rank 135. tp kte still xkn dipilih sbb KOP(Kulliyah of Pharmacy) kt main camp tu.. xnk course ni di-second-class kn. Sbb tu Pmacy xde intrview! Sbb tu, spe FIRST CHOICE PMACY, kmpem2 dpt! 

N, klu spe yg interview minta tukar xdpt, Pmacy plak time tu dh penuh. Or dia dh start invite bdk lain. So, akan dicampak ke course2 cm BIOSC or NURSING. Allied pun xley. sbb diorg pun nk kena streamlining gk. n akan ad 30++ yg dibuang, dicampak dri course tu masuk nursing. Nauzubillah!

Ottoke, ottoke?

oh, btw. nk tambah sikit. Current stdent denti skang 58 kot. n ad dlm 7-8org xlayak. apa2 pun, dh tolak. still exceed quota 43 org tu kan??? n ramai gk rupanya bebdk pmacy yg nk ke denti. n even bebdk medic sis pun nk tukar denti?? bebdk fast track, yg amik one-year programme lagi. Competition!!!!

* seriusli, time tulis ni xde la runsing2, nk pening2 ke apa. Sbb rsa mmg nk try utk Denti. tp bnda ni bkn ley uat main2. xley ikut perasaan. Kena pk PRO & CONS nyer.. Kang kena campak gi NURSING???? Ya Allah. mmg lari kuar gi Mesir la. nk g Tanta! HAHA. mcm la duit ad. okay, klu duit xde, trus amik SPA je la. KEJE. huhu. isk3.. sedih plak~~

Bro Fadhil tu ad mentioned. cm taon lepas, x se-compete taon ni. bkn nk kata batch taon lepas xpandai. BUKAN. cuma, mgkin taon ni, jumlah ktorg lebih ramai... klu dlu, even CGPA 3.33 ad yg dijemput masuk Pmacy. Mksdnya xcukup org la kn?? Tp this time, sape yg dpt CGPA 3.5, 3.6 & 3.7 dh kena warning supaya berhati2! Dush! Ak ni ala, cikai 3.8 je pun.. Bkn 4.0plat setiap sem..

Berat. berat. berat.  Tu la. Kang ikut hati, mati. Ikut rasa, binasa. Ecehhh.

Macam mana??

Play safe? or amik RISK?

Papepn, sdg berdoa.. Moga dipermudahkan~~

Doakan sy!


Tak sempat

Bismilllah. Assalamualaikum.

Maaf. masih xsempat nk meng-update. Minggu ni rushing sikit. Dgn extra kelas yg tetiba wujud utk gantikan kelas minggu depan. Letih badan ni pun xrecover sepenuhnya lg. Masih mengantuk2. dan kalau boleh. NAK SANGAATTT!!! tdo lama2.... tp, xelok kn? lgpun, xley dh la. nk selfish tdo lama2 tu. Byk lg bnda nk diusahakn.

Bru sudah Isya. Td meeting smpai 12 lbey gk la.. Balik2, amik wudhuk. tp ter batal. Opps! HAHA. em. cri2 details utk assigment bio. 

Okay, right after this, nk terus siapkan tuto bio. dh jumpa discussion, analysis dri internet. Then, nk siapkan references yg group bio submit thru FB. nk list out kan, print. Then. Tdo! esok pg la, bru bgun awal dan baca  lab manual. dan uat latihan math.! Jgn la, mdm panggil plak suh bentang answer kt dpn... bru stdy oww. ne master lg. revision pn ala2 kadar je bru..

tata! :))

Friday, March 23, 2012

Psychology Quiz. HAHA

Bismillah :) Assalamualaikum.

Hai. Rsa empty sikit sekarang ni. Bkn empty yg empty tuu. tp mcm xtau nk uat apa. Hah, mcm tu la.. dgn bru sudah kuiznya ptg td. penat sikit hari ni. Dgn tekanan perasaan kerja lg. Tu yg down sikit kot?

Kerja? ak xsuka org kacau kerja ak. seriusli. especiali bila bnda dh elok2 okay, tp ko sebok nk edit2 keje ak n MAKE IT WORSER? Hello? geramm. xpe. jwpnnya, xpayah angkat fon. xpayah reply msg. tp, ak maafkan ko dah. Yah, betul la tu. ko xperfect! Aku pun sama. 

Kuiz Bio, chapter taxonomy+homeostasis. honestli, xley nk score sgt dkt homeostasis tuu. sbb kurang stdy. xpe la. let by gone, be by gone. esok, ak akan stdy tjuk homeostasis tu balik. best je tajuk tuu. cuma, kekangan masa sblum ni je laa. Sabar je la zati :)

Well, xtau nk uat ap. last2 uat Psychology Quiz :)

Hehe :))

Choose one!


well, aku pilih no 1 dan no 8. So, ni results nya :))

1- Introspektif, Sensitif, Reflektif
Anda dapat memahami diri dan persekitaran anda dengan lebih kerap dan mendalam jika dibandingkan dengan kebanyakan orang lain. Anda bencikan kedangkalan; anda lebih sanggup bersendirian berbanding dengan bercakap perkara remeh. Perhubunan anda dengan rakan-rakan adalah amat intensif; ini memberikan harmoni dan ketenangan dalaman yang mengakibatkan perasaan baik. Anda tidak keberatan bersendirian bagi jangka masa yang panjang; anda jarang berasa bosan.
  8- Romantis, Pelamun, Beremosi
Anda seorang yang sensitif. Anda enggan memandang dari segi rasional dan waras sahaja. Perasaan anda membawa erti yang sama penting. Anda berpendapat bahawa harapan adalah penting dalam hidup.
Anda menolak orang yang mencaci romantisme dan hanya dipandukan oleh rasionaliti. Anda tidak membenarkan sebarang kongkongan terhadap variasi perasaan hati dan emosi anda.


Suka, suka, suka~~

Personality Cake test :)


I choose, Ice-cream cake!

Ice Cream... You like sports, whether it is baseball, football, 
basketball, or soccer. If you could, you would like to participate, but you enjoy watching sports. You don't like to give up the remote control. You tend to be self-centered and high maintenance. 

Group (Monyet):


Tidak sabar dan begitu hiperaktif! Kamu mahu segala-galanya dilakukan
dengan pantas. Namun, kamu memang sederhana orangnya dan begitu suka
apabila ramai yang memberikan perhatian kepada kamu. Kamu bijak berhadapan
dengan masalah dan tidak mahu terlibat dengan sebarang kontroversi. Setiap
langkah dan keputusan, kamu akan berfikir sebelum melakukannya. Kamu
mempunyai kata hati yang kuat dan itulah yang menjadi penyelemat kepada
kamu. Jangan tidak tahu, mereka yang bernaung di bawah monyet memang begitu
bijak mencari wang dan begitu pandai mengatur kewangannya. Kamu memang akan
berjaya di dalam perniagaan.

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Berbeza

Bismillah.

Ya, kita berbeza. Aku bicara A ko faham B. Mana x nya, kita dri planet yg berbeza.

Monday, March 19, 2012

Otak yg cerdas dari badan yg cergas. tak gitu?

Bismillah. Assalamualaikum :))

*Jgn baca je, jawab salam sekali tau!

Em, wondering about the title post above. ya la, rsa sukan dah. tp otak sampai skang letih lagii. Xde mud study lg ni. eh, silap. bkn xde mud study. tp bdn xbrapa nk sihat. ni msti sbb dok main bdminton ritu. tgn kanan sakit.. main bola tmpr xsakit pun. huhu.

N ntah npe perut sakit. cm cramped. nk gelak je, sakit. nk gelak, sakit lg. sudahnya. bila nk gelak, marah org plak sbb buat lawak. hehe.

Em,, trip ke Kuatan hujung bln ni, xjd la nk follow. xde mud dah. rsa nk balik umah. klu x pun, duk je kt CFS ni. nk tdo 40 jam!  instead of exercising, i rather choose excessive sleeps. HAHA. *pemalas.

dhla2. malas dh nk tulis. dpt x rasa keserabutan si penulis ni. dhla, ngajuk ni. marah lagi. xsuka, xsuka. U, penipu. malas dh nk contact. huh!  **dendam balik. marah lama dtg balik. bengang.

Sunday, March 18, 2012

update blog*SMAC Volleyball(SIS)


Bismillah. Assalamualaikum :)

Update blog? Xnk la. Ngajuk~ hehe.

Papepun, nk kena share! Alhamdulillah. Ktorg, team MEDCY (bebdak Medic, Dentist, ALLHS, Nursing n Pmacy) dapat GOLD utk SMAC kali ni. Syukur sgt2. Happy ni. Yehuuu!!! :))

Seriusli, rasanya smpai skang ni dok terigt2 2 set yg mcm nk gila.Time quarter dgn bebdk Engineering n final dgn bebdk Presss(BioSns n Physcal Science). Papepn, syukur. Sbb semua dh lakukan yg terbaik! Walaupun ad mistakes2 yg em..unacceptable sikit cm xlepas serve?! bola senang yg ke laut.. tp, well. people do mistakes ya..? Syukur sbb dapat team yg bersabar dan komited. Syukur, syukur~

speechless abes la. xtau nk ckp apa.. nk nangeehhh. Sbb sy slalu marah diorg. N till the end, masih marah (tegur2!). tp diorg keep improving. Tachinggg :')

Well, thats it! xsabar nk tggu game Brothers mggu depan. Haishhh. Terabai lagi la study ku :'((
Isk2. Sabar ye Bio. I love u always. HAHA.

Mlm ni, konpius! KONPI gila nk uat pe.. abes dlm nk tgh hari td. sokong bdminton, balik bilik pas solat trus tido. hehe. 3 jam gak la nk cover balikk. Skang online2 jap plus, nk uat EAW. Then pas Isya, stdy bio la kot. Argghh. kuiz Math lg? Assgment BIO? 

Chill~ Zati boleh! I can do it, thats why im being chosen to face this. hua3.

got to go.

*Currently listening to my musics. LAma gila xdgr!!!! mksdya lama la xspend time utk diri sndiri. lme la xstdy. Heiss -.-"

Bye2 :))




Thursday, March 15, 2012

follow Ter**ktab


Hai. Assalamualaikum. :)

Lama nya rasa x blog, tp bru bbrapa hari je kan? Saja je sbnrnya xupdate blog. Hehe. Byk sgt cter, n xnk la spend time dpn laptop. Lain la klu ad org nk kol ke.. Sbb suka cakap. Klu msg pun, malas dh. Ramai sgt yg msg skang.. *perasan*

Oh, Kita mungkin pasangan tepat. Lebih tepat kalau kita tak terlalu rapat. Takut bila putus hati sukar terubat.
Haha.

Sedang melawat FB terfaktab. tu yg ter'ngoi' sikit. coz i find those words in their status in inspiring. especially this one (for this time)

; memang aku sayangkan kau. tapi kalau kau dah layan aku serupa sampah, baik aku blah.

Kau pernah beritahu dia apa yang kau suka dan tidak suka, tetapi malangnya dia masih buat ikut suka dia. 

Dan malangnya, dia masih tidak memahami. Mengapa kau melangkah pergi.  

Haha. Terbaik. Mesti pelik kan? kt part mana yg inspiring nya? Hoho.

Orait. got to go. Mau rehat. ad kelas kul 11 ni. :))

Adios~

 

Sunday, March 11, 2012

Assalamualaikum :)

Senyuman seindah suria, ohooo~~

Banyak sebenarnya boleh ditulis. Tapi, cukuplah. Nak rehat beberapa hari ni. Penat. Dan yg lebih penting dari tu, ad yg lebih penting sedang menunggu.

Selamat tinggal *.*

10 MAC

Assalamualaikum :)

10 MAC 2012. Yeay! Dah 20taon. Dah ley kawenn. haha. gurau je la. Syukur Alhamdulillah. Masih bernafas. Masih sihat. Masih mampu lg nk blog ni ha. Boleh plak lupa password nk login blog. Haishh. xde rezki. next time la cter lebih2 sikit.

Btw, Thnks for all the wishes and dua' :)

May Allah bless us

Friday, March 9, 2012

Istighfar~

"Barang siapa memperbanyak istighfar, maka akan diberi kelapangan dalam setiap kesusahan dan jalan keluar dari kesempitan. Dan dianugerahi rezeki dari jalan yang tiada disangka-sangka." (HR. Abu Dawud dan Nasa'i).

"Mereka apabila melakukan perbuatan keji atau menganiaya diri sendiri, segera ingat akan Allah, lalu memohon ampunan atas dosa-dosanya...(QS. 3:135).

Yang pertama, setiap kali kita mengucapkan astagfirullahal 'adzim, berarti kita minta ampun kepada Allah, minta dimaafkan kesalahan kita, minta ditutupi aib-aib kita. Semakin sering kita beristighfar maka semakin bersih diri kita dari dosa, dari kesalahan, dari aib-aib. Karena itu Allah sangat menyukai hamba Allah yang terus beristighfar. Karena tidak satu pun di antara kita yang bersih dari dosa, maka istighfar adalah kewajiban dan kebutuhan kita, agar Allah mengampuni dosa kita, memaafkan kesalahan kita dan menutupi aib kita.
Yang kedua, setiap kali kita mengucapkan astagfirullahal 'adzim, berarti kita minta kepada Allah, mohon kepada Allah, amat sangat, agar Allah memperbaiki hidup kita, menguatkan aqidah kita, membuat kita nikmat dalam ibadah khusyuk, menjadikan akhlaq kita mulia..

Artikel iluvislam.com
Dipetik dari http://adminskss.blogspot.com

Semoga mendapat manfaat :)
Dan tau x, setiap satu ucapan Astaghfirullah akan membersihkn satu bintik hitam dlm hati kita?. Astaghfirullah. Astaghfirullah. Astaghfirullah al A'zim.. Dh 3bintik hitam hilang. Mudah-mudahan dgn izin Allah. Sekian~   Doakan utk exam bio atie....


Thursday, March 8, 2012

pre-bio 2 paper

Bismillah. Assalamualaikum~

again, spend time lagi dpn laptop. Lama gk kot xpegang lappy? Ye ke? Em. dont get me wrong. Exam bio xlepas lagi, jd xley la nk berlama-lama an kt sini. Online dgn niat yg tulus ikhlas nk cuba cari soalan online. HAHA.

Biology.

Serius. Nk score yg terbaik. Nk dpt full marks klu ad rezki. Tp tu la cuak. Nk stdy lg skang, dh tepu. sbb tu nk uat soaln. Papepn, penting sgt exam ni bg ak. Ad ke'cuak'an, ad ke'stres'an yg menggunung. Serius! Setiap kali solat, rsa cm dh xnk bgun dari sujud.. Nak Allah tolong legakan~~ sbjek bio ni dh jd cm boifren baru sjak kblkgn ni. errr........ jgn la hampakn ak, jgn la kuar soalan yg terlalu2melencong dri sylabus, jgn la byk sgt application yg kena pk sndiri.. jgn la yg ak xmampu jwb ya Allah. Permudahkan la~

huhu. cuaknya. Doakan ak! Doakan! Doakan!!! :'))

Semoga dapat yg terbaik. Amin~~


Monday, March 5, 2012

satu sudaa. DUA lagi :)

Bismillah. Assalamualaikum :)

Alhamdulillah. Dah abes exam EAW. Pasni, trus fokus utk Math. Esok, kul 2.30ptg. 

Ntah nape excited plak nk online? Atau lebih tepat lg, excited plak nk blog ni. Bknnya sebab dpt score sgt time jawab. Klu taye psl paper td, Alhamdulillah. so far so good. Walaupun dh tau ad yg terpandai2 je ak ni g tukar reference name dia. tp, xde la effect byk sgt mrkah kot. Kot la. papepn, ak pasrah :)  dan redha :))
Tawakkaltu 'ala Allah..

Btw, thnks Amir Ridwan. hehe. Best la bila teringat perbualan kita pg td. Hehe. Ley plak terkait psl Final Destination.. gelak2 je la.. Papepn, xkira. Pasni, xnk main lagi eh kt taman tema cmtu? Cosmoworld, Genting.. Xpayah la.. Pasni, kita g Cameron. xpun, Aquaria! HAHA. sbnrnya xkesah mana pun, as long as u give me ur attention! n what matters the most~ u r with me :))   Mucho.mucho.misscho. ^.^

Kol lagi. Selalu. HAHA.  got to go. nk terus uat Math :)
Serius cuak psl proving ni..

Papepn, usaha dulu~  


Sunday, March 4, 2012

pre-exam EAW

Bismillah..

Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah.

Rasa kosong. Penat. Malas. ak tau, ni semua ujian.
Ak stres bila mengenangkn nk stdy ap utk Eaw.. esok exam Eaw.. Eaw.. Eaw.. Haishh. memanjang la pening klu subjek ni. haha. 

Hari ni, xberapa smooth bg ak. bgun lmbt, dh tu. tdo lagi. tdo, tdo.. haishh. tp ak cuba gak chill~ sebab ni semua Allah yg tetapkan. ak dah usaha xnk tdo, tp still nk tdo. Mesti la ad hikmah nya kan? suh rehat dulu.. relax ke.. Husnuzon~~~

Last2, ak perasan. dh 'haus' dahh. Lama kot ak xspend time nk membaca artikel2 islamic ni.. Previously, mmg ak nk salahkn broadbnd ak. Slow gila klu buka iluvIslam. tp tu alasan je kan? Bknya kt situ je ak ley baca. Ni ha, kt bilik. buku2 Hilal Asyraf lama dah x bersentuh.. Klu x, dlu sblum tdo, baca gk la.. Bku hadis 40 ak pun lama dh xbelek. Haishh. apa la nak jadi.

Sebab tu, masalah aku ialah KONSISTEN :(

Dah2. xpayah nk stress sgt. (Rasa nk kol org jauhh tu.. nk suh dia teman, chill kn balik. tp nama pun jauhhh..). so, EAW. apa yg ak uat td? Buka web Kevin Zahari. nk kurus!! haha. cri info psl pilates. xnk bg perut buncit, diet. HAHA. Kali ni, nk serius la. sebab ti nk dating. HAHA. Less than 3 months. At least, xkurus xpe, yg penting, SIHAT. ni dh cm org tua, cm dh beranak 2-3 org. ap la..

EAW. keep reading english articles.. iluvIslam.. Chill sudah! Muktamad.

Amalkan ini, ~dalam matsurat :)


اللَّهُمَّ إِنِّي أَعُوذُ بِكَ مِنَ الْهَمِّ وَ الْحَزَنِ وَ أَعُوذُ بِكَ مِنَ العَجْزِ وَ الْكَسَلِ
وَ أَعُوذُ بِكَ مِنَ الْجُبْنِ وَ الْبُخْلِ وَ أَعُوذُ بِكَ مِنْ غَلَبَةِ الدَّيْنِ و قَهْرِ الرجا
{Oh Allah, I seek refuge in You from worry and grief, from helplessness and laziness, from cowardice and stinginess, and from overpowering of debt and from oppression of men.}


Well, EAW tu English for Academic Writing. senang cter ckp, exam ENGLISH! :))


THE VOW~

Bismillah. Assalamualaikum :)

Oh, ye. esok ak exam. tp still nk update blog. kononnya la 12.30-1.30ptg ni rehat. Konon la. walhal dhla bangun kul 11. sob2~~

Okay. xnak sedih2. Biasa la ad naik turun? so, nk hepi sikit. THE VOW~~~~!!!!!!
xsabar nya nk tengok. Dpt tau cter ni wktu balik rumah bbrapa hari yg lepas. tgk ntv7 n dlm satu show tu dia ad tnjuk la trailers citer ni. oh,oh. trus tersedu. sedan. taching. dasaatt x? Em. maybe xsume org mcm tu. As for me, im very sensitive towards all issue in familyhood.haha. familyhood? naseb la. tp serius ni. klu bab2 cinta x kesampaian, divorce, deaths. oh, tachingg abess :((
maybe sebab EMPATI ? meletakkan diri kita dlm situasi tuu?
 yg paling terkesan... bila dia tulis,

WHAT IF 5YEARS OF YOUR LIFE DISAPPEARED ?
fuhh :((


Done. excited sungguh.. Em, mgkin ad la part2 yg xberapa nk sopan. tp, nama pun cter omputeh kan? ignore je la. yg penting, INPUT tuu.

Alang2 dh buka official website tu, ley lak uat kuiz dia. hehe.

How Far Would You Go for the one you love?

YOUR RESULTS ARE IN
The Glass Half 
Full.

You would go pretty far for love. You’re still pretty practical even though you love being in love. You don’t go nuts over just anyone, but you’re fully willing to go the extra mile for the right person.


Dush.dush.dush. Dah. Nk makan. kang kena sambung study :(
Aha. pemalas. hehe.


Saturday, March 3, 2012

marriage.

Bismillah.

Copy paste dari FB. sedih. just at the right moment. klu dpt adapt onto movie, mesti ohsem. btw, nk tgok cter THE VOW~ <3

Married or not you should read this...


“When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife’s divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me… she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office…. jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind…I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed -dead. My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push through with the divorce.— At least, in the eyes of our son—- I’m a loving husband….

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves.

So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!


Thursday, March 1, 2012

March~ volley puye pasal.

Bismillah. Assalamualaikum.

xpasti sama ad dh lama xupdate blog or, byk sgt yg berlaku within a week.

Sedar tak sedar, dh masuk Mac dh sekarang. Cepat betul masa berlalu. Kalau sebelum ni, excited sgt nk uat entry Selamat datang Februari, tp kali ni Mac? Oh gosh. xtau la. Usuali, ak akan sgt suka bln Mac, but not this time. not this year. (kot)

March's List ~
1. Midsem exam
5hb- EAW
6hb- Math
10hb- Bio.

Ok, sila highlight kt exam bio ea. 10Mac. Oh. jgn la xdpt jwb, kmpem merana seharian tuu. n btw, npe mesti exam hari sabtu. bkn sabtu tu holiday ke?? uat la hari jumaat ke, isnin ke.. tp, tu la. ad hikmah. mksudnya, ak kna struggle la kn. supaya x nyesal nnti.

but the problem is, i cudnt find any courage, spirits/ motivation. nk study pun xde mud dh. apatah lg nk strugle gila2 kn? tu yg risau. at the end. STRES. 

ok. instead im writing March's List . better kot. tulis STRESS's waitng list. -.-

Harap maklum. entry ni di tulis dg 1000% perasaan dan 1% kewarasan.

2. SMAC- Sports and Martial Art Carnival- PC and CAPTAIN..

ok, seperti yg sedia maklum, kn masuk volleyball. secara rela hati nya. kompem la. suka volleyball. then, pd masa yg sme, kna duty gk jd Programme coordinator game volley. before ni, in charge game sister je. kali ni. dua2 sekali. ha, siap. mmg la kn.. kompem, kacau gila weekend time tu.. dhla game sabtu. kalau ujan, ahad sekali. dan mksudnya. akan ad 2minggu weekend ak yg xmcm weekend. akceli, bkn yg bakal 2minggu time smac ni je. even skang pun, weekend dh xmcm weekend. jumaat dh ad kelas. harap sabtu, ahad. tu pun klu xde event pape. KALAU. tp usuali akan ad. meeting etc. Tak kesah pergi meeting. tp nk yg kualiti. ni klu membebel xtntu arah. (klu la..) or, imput xbpe nk masyhuk. mmg rsa nk ngamuk la. lg2 klu dh lebih 2jam. ee. tolong la. ap ko igt, org lain xde keje ke?

Psl SMAC ni jugak. yg uat ak stress sgt2 sbnrye ni psl teamate ak. ktorg ad 9. n frankly speaking, xsume yg terror. ad yg basic tu cm xde basic. tp xkesah klu dia dtg training. xkesah klu nmpk effort dia. ni, yg sebok nak main 2 game? Hello????? yg ko nk tamak sgt pehal ar! ak ni pun ad org ajak main futsal. even dlu captain smac ak tu main futsal n volley. boleh je kn. tp npe ak xmain futsal? sbb ak sedar diri. masa training skang dhla packed. dh ad jadual. contoh klu 5-6.30 ptg tu. MEDCY. mksudnya sume game pun training time tu. alah, klu ak xtraining pun xpe kot. tp ak still dtg tarining. pk gk nk bg komitmen utk training sbb bg ak komitmen. responsible tu penting. ni ko sesuka hati perut usus ko je kn nk jd reserve bdminton la. hello. even volley pun ko reserve je. tp kn ak dh gtau. ak nk sume org main. ak nk sume org dtg training. psl ko 2 org yg sebok jd reserve bdmnton mrgkap commitee medcy ni. spoil tau. klu dri awal ak tau, ak xamik korg tau. bknyya terror mana pun. better ak amik org yg kurang 0.1% je lemah dri ko. n train dia. yg lain2 tu, pun xteror mana. tp skang . better lg dri ko. sbb diorg ap? sbb diorg TRAINING. eehhhhh. marah btol kt org mcm ni. marah gila. sbb training bkn stiap hari pun. n lg satu. ni ha, game volley ngn bdminton mgkin serentak. tahniah sbb ko dh uat ak sakit hati. oh, terigt. awal2 dlu, ak dh kata kn. spe xdtg lebih dri 2x. ak nk eliminate from team. dhla training dtg lmbt, xdtg lgsung pun ad.ni klu ko xdtg during game , sbb ad game lain. adakah ak akan maafkn ko? ktorg menang, ko nk medal jugak? hello. ak bukan suci. bukan baik mcm malaikat la..!

psl bnda ni je, abes rosak sume deria rasa ak. ak xtau nk handle cmne. tlg? anyone. minta bg nasihat sikit. sbb ak xley nk tenangkn diri sndiri dah. igt lg, psl dua org ni. (yg mana time tu dh kantoi dgn ak main 2game. walhal, ktorg ad second last training, tp still nk pergi training bdminton!), trus ak duk tepi court n bengang. ad sorg ni taye, npe. n ak jwb kuat2 "tgh bngang". ha, jgn nk main2. ckp direct je! pastu, xde mkna nya la nk senyum2. sori? boleh blah la weyy! 10 kali ko minta maaf, ap ko igt ak ni mulia sgt nk maafkn mcm tu... Sdgkn Rasulullah pun maafkn umatnya. Err.? jgn samakn ak dgn baginda. :(

Sedih. sedih gila org uat perangai tahi cmni kt ak. lain kali, jgn pick ak as a captain! haha. pdn muka, training ritu lwn ak bertiga kalah, dh kena lari court bpe round. seriusli. rasanya. bnda ni la yg menyebabkn MOOD march ak spoil. xsuka la.. 

Cmne? bnda biasa je ke?? Nak ken handle cmne ni? Nak pendam kemarahan ni? TIDAK. Nak buang diorg dri team? NAK. Nak maafkn diorg? err. Minta maaf? Dah.tp ak marah balik pastu. So, cmne ni...????????????????????????????????????????????????????

3. Birthday.
x excited lgsung nk smbut birthday kali ni. Amir xde. Amir jauh.. dlu sambut awal, sbb amir kt mtrix. skang ni xsambut terus. or smbut lmbt? tggu amir balik bln 6 ni? Naseb la fmli ad. tp time tu, xley balik.. Ak xkisah pun klu org xigt bsday ak. Ak bknya faymes ke ap. seriusli xkesah. Ak cuma nk org yg btol2 syg, btol2 care dkt ak je wish.. Parents ak, adik2 ak.. Amir.. Qila.. Dira.. rumate2 ak.. :')

got to go la. dhla hari ni tdo sekejap je. rsa mcm xtdo pun ad jgak la.. japg nk kuar. beli adiah besday. HAHA. *hepi sikit*

ad lagi nk tulis. tp 3 ni je pun dh cukup meng-stress kan. Ak psiko ke? ak je ke yg rasa cmni? Psl SMac tu. menang kalah blkg kira. ak cma nk komitmen :(

thnks amir. i know u'll reading this. thnks for ur effort td.