Bismillah. Assalamualaikum.
Yeay! *listening to Avril-Wish u were here
Okayy. Hm, tgh chat ngn amir td. cm rutin plak.. blek2 keje. Kul 1 msti chat ngn dia.. thnks! Sbb slalu tnggu. Slalu ad :) Ntah cmne tetba td ter-shut down, n now kwn dia guna. so, nk cepat2 meluah.. Menaip... Ye.! Mmg nk 'menulis'.. Lme dh kot.. Mcm2 tergmbr.. mcm2 nk tulis. Cme xde ksmpatan. N ble bka blog, jd blur~~ Jd ngoi! HAHA. N, now. xkesah la ap tajuk pn.. xde tajuk ke.. Reali nk meluah ni.
*wpn nk tulis ap bercmpur baur
Ok. kerja. Alhamdulillah. Makin lme, mkin ok.Ad hkmah di sebalik semua ye. Bagus ye ble ak keje kt sini. Ak dpt pglmn hdup. Ak bljr drpd pglmn hdup org lain. Ak tgok, perhati, pk dan uat pgjran utk diri ak sndiri. Reali, keje kali ni. ak sgt ad BANYAK masa utk memikir dan ad jgak 'meng-konplen'. My bad. HAHA.
Berhenti keje? Mmg ritu ak dh ad niat nk berhenti. Ak ckp dgn ibu " Ibu, fed up la keje cmni. Malas. Dhla cm xorganised sgt. Bla.. bla.. bla.. " N ibu ak pn kte. xpe la atie. rehat. duit dpt, tp hati xtenang, pk mcm2.. Lg baik duk umah.. TAPI. Skang ni, TAK NAK. Insya-Allah, ak akan cuba bertahan. Tak kn nk mengalah dgn bnda remeh ni..? Oh ye.. xde la remeh sgt sbnrye, its not good physically n mentally. But I BELIEVE, everythng happens for a reason n Allah has His own plan to let me work in this place. Yep. Ak sbnrye, lg dekat dgn Allah ble keje kt tmpt ni. Insya-allah. Amin.
Btol kn? Makin menginjak usia kte, mkin byk masalah. Yela.. byk sgt pk kot? Lg2 klu pk tu xblndaskan Al-Quran dan sunnah. Xkre ap jadi pn. Ak yakin.. agama Islam ini agama yg smpurna.. Tak kira byk mana masalah, tension mana pn.. Ak sntiasa dan akn slalu percaya yg kte kena kembali kpd fitrah. Mksud ak. Mgharapkan Tuhan. Mgharap, memohon kpd Allah. Mmgla kdg2 kte cari manusia.. Yela, tp hbg kait tu sntiasa ad. Aduishh. xreti nk explain cmne.. Yg pnting, point ak. Makin rsa tension, stress ke ap ke.. Berdoa. Minta ptunjuk kt Allah. Itu yg ak uat.. N, tu gk la hasil pmrhatian ak slme ni. Cewaaahh.. cm ap je kn? Tp, ad je orh yg xde mslh? ad kot.. ad je org yg lg suka ble dia mkin besar.. msti ad kn? AK PUN SUKA BLE DH MAKIN BESAR. haha.. tp reali ni. Ikhlas gle menulis. Ak sedar, ak bkn baik mana. ak berdosa. Byk uat dosa.. Sdg berdosa.. Mgkin. Tp, ak juga ADA usaha nk jd bdk baik. Doakn ak :)
Em, ap lg ye? Mcm2 nk cter ni kot. Tp, tgok. Amir la ni.. Dh chat2 ngn dia.. Jd lupa. Ok, alang2 tu.
ANOTHER PART OF ME : RELATIONSHIP AMIRZATI
Hm, dh cm entry ke 2 plak kn? Lantak la.. Ap ak kesah. Yg pnting. Ak selesa. Err. HAHA. Hm, amir dh jauh 2 bln. or lbey lama dri tu. Reali. But, love is still there. Passion tu maintain. kah3. Cm ap je. Hm, mmg la ad bca mcm2.. Long distance relationship is BULLSHIT la.. ap la.. even gduh2 antra ktorg. Tp, biasa la kn? SEDANGKAN LIDAH TERGIGIT, INIKAN PULA........ ha, pndai2 la nk smbung.. Well, ak bersyukur. Alhamdulillah. Thnks Allah. Please let us be together.. Forever.. Moga dia jodoh ak. Amin. Untung kn? Sbb psgn ak jauh.. Krgla sikit dugaan ye.. Zina hati-rindu tu mmg ad. Tp, igt lg pesan ustaz ak.. " Selagi awk x terbwa2.. sntiasa bermujahadah.. Haishh. Ustaz pn xley nk kta ap la klu femli awk xbg kawen. Sentiasa la berdoa kpd Allah.. Dosa awk tetap ad wpun awk nk khwin, tp fmli xbg. Igt, jihad la perasaan tu " BAIK USTAZ. Insya-Allah.. tetba rsa rndu kelas BTQ~ Basic Themes of Al-Quran :)
Ok2, back to topic. Ak sbnrye byk meng-compare kn relationship ak ni.. KALAU la, ak dpt pergi ke masa hdpn, tgok Amir ni psgn ak ke.. Kan bgus? Bkn Amir je, even karier ak pn.. Tp, tu la. xdpt.. Jd, ap yg ak ley uat skang.. Berdoa.. n berusaha. Hm, so far. xde ap la kot yg uat ak nk putus. yela, relationship ni mmg xhalal, tp ktorg dh niat nk kawen. Ok la kot. Overall, eventhough tak perfect. tp, ak hepi. Haishh,.,, slalu gle pk nk terus ke nk putus ke? lg2 plak amir skang stdy, medic plak tu.. ak ni mggngu ke? perlu ke ktorg putus dlu tggu ti lepas msing2 dh abes bljr? Ntah la. Mcm2 pk. Tgok org lain, bhgia. sedih pn ad. Sume tu ak pk utk ak. Last2 ak yg pening.. Err? ap yg ak merapu ni..?? Lantak la.
So, to Amir Ridwan, yet im sure he'll be reading this. I would like to express my gratitude n my thnks to u. U MAKE MY DAY! U r the wonderful 'thing' i cherish and need the most. Please, jgn uat perangai? unless klu mmg nk cari pasal. try la..HAHA.
Ntah la. Chatting xsme kot dgn speaking.. Meluahkn sume2 tu.. I need someone. Reali. Tp, xpe la. *Kena practise ckp sorg2 la dri skang..??
Sekian
Maaf la.. Merapu merepek je byk!!
Chill~~
